"I'd like to feel a bit better/ I'd like to recover" Support Group Megathread

[Greyhawk]

Hi, I hope everyone is doing well. I originally joined this forum to research about SN or find an alternative method to kill myself but didn't end up doing it being the coward I am and after feeling the pain what my cousin's suicide brought to me and my family. I got diagnosed with bipolar II and I'm seeing a therapist finally in 2 weeks. I feel some hope for the first time after months of being depressed and want to get better. I want to find purpose for my life again.

 

[Marsoff]

Let me tell you. I am still pissed at the DMV, they told me to wait 6 more months.

 

[GalacticWarrior777]

Hi, I hope everyone is doing well. I originally joined this forum to research about SN or find an alternative method to kill myself but didn't end up doing it being the coward I am and after feeling the pain what my cousin's suicide brought to me and my family. I got diagnosed with bipolar II and I'm seeing a therapist finally in 2 weeks. I feel some hope for the first time after months of being depressed and want to get better. I want to find purpose for my life again.

Wish you all the best! It was the same for me, Ive originally joined to research on SN, but once the time came, I chickened out and couldnt CTB. Now I'm recovering, and overall am doing alright(I guess?).

Ive went through a lot of trauma, but I think that now, with the help of others and a bit of time I'll be able to recover, and so I wish for the rest of you! If you are feeling suicidal but change your mind, remember that there are many members here on this forum willing to help you recover, all it takes is a bit of courage! Stay strong in 2025

 

[Tired&Drained]

So, my dudes and dudettes

Some things changed for me, tbh I made some decisions and I am ready to make the pact.

I will write the things I wanna promise myself here and you do the same. We'll change the things we don't like along the way. But he have to start somewhere.

So this is what I propose for a start: each one of us making a vow, a promise (however you see fit) and then, as a rule write a post every day (no exception) about how their day went and how they are feeling

I'll make mine a tat later

Hoping on hearing from you soon !

I'd like to get back into meditating or at least going for a 30 minute walk.

Hedonic adaptation is so fucked, the things you do manage to find you that bring you so amount of okayness, like anything else that goodness fades and its back into the rat race.

I'm in a place that I've hard to fight so hard to get to and its not worth it, nothing is. I can do everything right and its not going to change the raw wrongness of the human condition.

The big thing that got to me today seems so stupid but it impacted me a lot. I had to have a medical appointment and without being warned they said we needed to do bloodwork. Florida tap waster tastes like shit and I don't like the feeling of the wetness of my mouth, I usually don't even like flavored water but again its just another burden I'm going to have to carry if I'm gonna get through this. I really thought id be fine but it hurt so much, I had to suffer and it didn't even work. I get into fantasy escapism, mostly SWTOR, mainly as a means I think of letting me enjoy some illusion of control and power, I'm not a self-conscious nothing I'm the main character.

I've been alternating between hedonistic nihilism and hedonistic despair and it is hard. I hope writing this does something at least for someone else, that or it's probably just self-harm

Wish you all the best! It was the same for me, Ive originally joined to research on SN, but once the time came, I chickened out and couldnt CTB. Now I'm recovering, and overall am doing alright(I guess?).

Ive went through a lot of trauma, but I think that now, with the help of others and a bit of time I'll be able to recover, and so I wish for the rest of you! If you are feeling suicidal but change your mind, remember that there are many members here on this forum willing to help you recover, all it takes is a bit of courage! Stay strong in 2025

For me I don't think it's courage, more than anything its fear of the unknown that's kept me around, for better or worse

 

[overcastdays]

Hi, I'm not sure if there is a thread for asking questions about navigating the site, so, sorry for asking here, bit of a newbie on this site, haha. Anywho, I was told by someone that there was some form of support resources for dealing with ADHD somewhere in the recovery section, but I'm having trouble finding it. Anyone mind telling me where it is and giving me some pointers? Thanks a heap in advance, and all the best to everyone here.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Hi, I'm not sure if there is a thread for asking questions about navigating the site, so, sorry for asking here, bit of a newbie on this site, haha. Anywho, I was told by someone that there was some form of support resources for dealing with ADHD somewhere in the recovery section, but I'm having trouble finding it. Anyone mind telling me where it is and giving me some pointers? Thanks a heap in advance, and all the best to everyone here.

There are support resources in the sticky threads here in the Recovery Section where you found this thread. Idk about any specific ADHD thread though. You can use the search bar there are many topics about ADHD throughout the forum. If the search bar isn't available to you, you just have to post some more and you will have access to it.

Welcome to the Recovery Thread!

 

[HighFlight]

Hi, I hope everyone is doing well. I originally joined this forum to research about SN or find an alternative method to kill myself but didn't end up doing it being the coward I am and after feeling the pain what my cousin's suicide brought to me and my family. I got diagnosed with bipolar II and I'm seeing a therapist finally in 2 weeks. I feel some hope for the first time after months of being depressed and want to get better. I want to find purpose for my life again.

Welcome @Greyhawk. Choosing to live should not be view as cowardly. With either path, there are many factors that get weighed into the decision. The fact that you want to get better is a good sign that you've made the right choice for you at this moment in time. Please keep us updated on your progress. Know that you are not alone, and I wish you all the best.

Let me tell you. I am still pissed at the DMV, they told me to wait 6 more months.

I dread going to the DMV. Hope you can navigate the bureaucracy,

Wish you all the best! It was the same for me, Ive originally joined to research on SN, but once the time came, I chickened out and couldnt CTB. Now I'm recovering, and overall am doing alright(I guess?).

Hello @GalacticWarrior777, I glad to hear that you are doing 'aright'. A step along the path of recover. However, I would challenge you on the "chickened out' statement. We are hardwired to live, and it takes as much courage to continue living. I would rather congratulate you on your brave decision to try the path of recovery.

To all of us on the road to recovery, please remember that it is not a straight line - there will be bumps in the road. These are normal and to be expected. The best advice is to give yourself the room for grace when things don't go as planned, and above all, be kind to yourself.

Wishing everyone some peace along your journey.

 

[HighFlight]

Hi, I'm not sure if there is a thread for asking questions about navigating the site, so, sorry for asking here, bit of a newbie on this site, haha. Anywho, I was told by someone that there was some form of support resources for dealing with ADHD somewhere in the recovery section, but I'm having trouble finding it. Anyone mind telling me where it is and giving me some pointers? Thanks a heap in advance, and all the best to everyone here.

Hello and Welcome @overcastdays, There are some ADHD resources mixed in with the other sticky threads within the Recovery Forum. As a person with a late diagnosis of ADHD, I have a hard time implementing any of the suggestions. I have found a Youtube channel named "How to ADHD" to be full of pointers. I'm happy to exchange experiences with you via direct message. If you don't have access, just respond to this thread and I can initiate it.

 

[Adûnâi]

Is there a way to get any pen pals here? I'm still utterly alone, with nobody to talk to, it's unfortunate.

 

[fallingleaves]

I'm having a personal, relational, existential and financial crisis and I'm having trouble hanging on.

 

[HighFlight]

I'm having a personal, relational, existential and financial crisis and I'm having trouble hanging on.

You are not alone.

You're welcome to message me if you'd like to talk.