I won't be able to ctb on my scheduled date. (ofc)

[IndyAna]

After numerous failed suicidal attempts I thankfully stumbled upon the SN method, thanks to this forum. I feel that I'll succeed this time.

I've got everything prepared, benzos, antiemetics, beta blockers, and all of them legally. I'm now waiting for my SN which will probably arrive tomorrow, and the aquarium test.

I was planning to ctb on 23 of June, since this is the date a loved one of mine passed away 16 years ago. I really wanted to die on that exact date for sentimental reasons, but, of course, some unfinished business came up that I need to take care of before I do so.

It's a stupid rant, I know, but I just wish I could fulfill my wish exactly how I planned it in my head. Anyway.

 

[90starve]

im so sorry that your plans have been delayed - wishing you the best and hoping you surpass this hurdle with ease <3

 

[IndyAna]

im so sorry that your plans have been delayed - wishing you the best and hoping you surpass this hurdle with ease <3

thank you so much for your kind words

 

[Watlock]

Ugh I'm sorry, I know how disappointing it must be to finally have everything together just for it all to be for nothing. I guess you could look at this way, sometimes when you're forced to wait, it can make the final results even sweeter. You may want to leave now, right now, but enduring just a bit longer could make your decision easier.

 

[FuneralCry]

I guess that after all, it's difficult to set a date for ctb as existence certainly is unpredictable but at least having the option of the SN means that you have a way to free yourself, I think that those who managed to access SN really are fortunate, but still I get that it must be frustrating being in that situation. I hope that you eventually find the freedom you are searching for.

 

[IndyAna]

Ugh I'm sorry, I know how disappointing it must be to finally have everything together just for it all to be for nothing. I guess you could look at this way, sometimes when you're forced to wait, it can make the final results even sweeter. You may want to leave now, right now, but enduring just a bit longer could make your decision easier.

I hope so too. thank you!

I guess that after all, it's difficult to set a date for ctb as existence certainly is unpredictable but at least having the option of the SN means that you have a way to free yourself, I think that those who managed to access SN really are fortunate, but still I get that it must be frustrating being in that situation. I hope that you eventually find the freedom you are searching for.

amen to that. thank you