i wish i killed myself already when i still had the chance

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my dumbass thought that maybe things will get better but it only got worse

my only friend left me already and i can't live normally without his reassurance

now here i am crying almost everyday because of my loneliness and appearance

i really wish i could end everything but i don't have access to things that i could use to commit suicide

don't know what to do anymore so i guess i'll just painfully wait for another opportunity to die

i hope i succeed next time...

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I wish i ctb before too

 

[JustSomeoneOnline]

sorry i dont know your situation and i know its probably tiring asf to stay alive. better luck on your next attempt, this forum is always open if you need methods

 

[Already Gone6]

I'd hate that too. It's why I don't want to miss my neckst ;D oppurtunity. But if I had no options i'd probably just drown myself in the tub or some shit honestly.

 

[JustSomeoneOnline]

I'd hate that too. It's why I don't want to miss my neckst ;D oppurtunity. But if I had no options i'd probably just drown myself in the tub or some shit honestly.

thats true but its hard as hell to overcome survival instinct no matter how desperate you are. you'd really have to be at life's edge to completely ignore it. also hanging seems like a better option if ur desperate, or at least find some way to knock urself out that way it'd be much harder to fail

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it's really so dreadful feeling trapped in a situation of constant suffering, I wish that suicide is much easier, I see it as being so cruel how it's purposely made so difficult to leave this world.

 

[FindingHome]

Me too, I regret that day in 2020 when I didn't do it.

 

[_Alfarooq_]

my dumbass thought that maybe things will get better but it only got worse

my only friend left me already and i can't live normally without his reassurance

now here i am crying almost everyday because of my loneliness and appearance

i really wish i could end everything but i don't have access to things that i could use to commit suicide

don't know what to do anymore so i guess i'll just painfully wait for another opportunity to die

i hope i succeed next time...

It's the survival instinct that lied to you and made you think there is still hope in this life. Once I lose all hope, my choice of death with be jumping. I just need to find a mountain...

 

[Loooray]

It's the survival instinct that lied to you and made you think there is still hope in this life. Once I lose all hope, my choice of death with be jumping. I just need to find a mountain...

Survival instinct is the biggest bitch. Keeping you alive no matter what. Keeping you away from a perfectly rational decision (at least in my case) that there is simply no point in going forward. Causing paralyzing fear because oh no your biological functions might stop.