I wish I had SN

[yellow rose]

I would take it in a heartbeat. I don't understand those who have it but don't take it.

I've seriously thought about trying to slash into my arteries, but worried I don't manage to any then have obvious signs of self harm.

I keep reading posts on here about ligature, but again worried it doesn't work and leaves a mark around my neck.

God I wish there was a simple way.

 

[Kayla]

I don't understand those who have it but don't take it.

I have SN, but I'm not gonna take it. I've already taken SN and survived it, and it was the worst thing to happen in my life.

 

[ginadu]

Did you survive without any long lasting health issues?
Why have you kept some SN?

 

[Kayla]

Did you survive without any long lasting health issues?
Why have you kept some SN?

No long-lasting health issues. I didn't keep SN from that attempt; it got taken. When I got out of the hospital, basically a month later, I reordered it. My address is now flagged, so I can't get sn anymore. This one bottle is all I have.

 

[yellow rose]

I have SN, but I'm not gonna take it. I've already taken SN and survived it, and it was the worst thing to happen in my life.

What's made you change your mind on taking it again?

 

[Kayla]

What's made you change your mind on taking it again?

There's so much more to life then dying to a salt. I don't want to go through it again. I regretted it as soon as I swallowed it and I know if i were to do it again I would regret it again.

 

[yellow rose]

There's so much more to life then dying to a salt. I don't want to go through it again. I regretted it as soon as I swallowed it and I know if i were to do it again I would regret it again.

For you, perhaps.

For myself, no, there is not.

 

[medinjured521]

There's so much more to life then dying to a salt. I don't want to go through it again. I regretted it as soon as I swallowed it and I know if i were to do it again I would regret it again.

I never thought about suicide until everything in my life was ruined by medications. I'm sure you are, but be grateful you have a life worth living! I had one that was absolutely worth living to the fullest extent and it was raped and taken from me overnight.

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

There's so much more to life then dying to a salt. I don't want to go through it again. I regretted it as soon as I swallowed it and I know if i were to do it again I would regret it again.

I'm happy you didn't try again and hope that means you are committed to live. I'm glad you are still here.

 

[Kayla]

I never thought about suicide until everything in my life was ruined by medications. I'm sure you are, but be grateful you have a life worth living! I had one that was absolutely worth living to the fullest extent and it was raped and taken from me overnight.

I don't have a life worth living at all. Chronic pain, trauma, and a whole range of other things I won't get into. I just get through it day by day. I don't have to be "grateful" for anything

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

I would take it in a heartbeat. I don't understand those who have it but don't take it.

I've seriously thought about trying to slash into my arteries, but worried I don't manage to any then have obvious signs of self harm.

I keep reading posts on here about ligature, but again worried it doesn't work and leaves a mark around my neck.

God I wish there was a simple way.

That stuff sounds absolutely awful from what I'm reading and seeing on here. Terrible way to go. I personally wouldn't touch the stuff. (Sorry if you got multiple notifications about my reply. I just joined and am still trying to figure things out.)

 

[medinjured521]

I don't have a life worth living at all. Chronic pain, trauma, and a whole range of other things I won't get into. I just get through it day by day. I don't have to be "grateful" for anything

You just said there's a whole lot more to life so I responded because there's no point to life at all for some of us, whatsoever. Didn't mean to cause offense.

 

[interna]

God I wish there was a simple way.

felt
if only assisted suicide was legal globally..... itd really solve a lot of the problems suicide itself brings.

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

felt
if only assisted suicide was legal globally..... itd really solve a lot of the problems suicide itself brings.

Amen.

 

[suicideroom141]

Same but idek where to get some

 

[tooafraidtodiez]

I have SN, but I'm not gonna take it. I've already taken SN and survived it, and it was the worst thing to happen in my life.

I'm sorry about what you had to go through. But in terms of pain is it more like your insides are in pain or more about the difficulty in breathing and stress

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as all I want is to be permanently free from this torturous, dreadful existence and I always suffer so much from being so cruelly denied a poison so finally I can be at peace from this existence I just always saw as a mistake, it truly is horrific cruelty how humans make dying peacefully illegal, all that anti-suicide does is cause way more torture and suffering, I hope you find the freedom you search for.

 

[yellow rose]

I understand as all I want is to be permanently free from this torturous, dreadful existence and I always suffer so much from being so cruelly denied a poison so finally I can be at peace from this existence I just always saw as a mistake, it truly is horrific cruelty how humans make dying peacefully illegal, all that anti-suicide does is cause way more torture and suffering, I hope you find the freedom you search for.

Thanks for understanding.
I see you've been here some time, have you had attempts?