Venting I wish I could just press a restart button

[foreverclear]

I think about it all the time. I imagine myself restarting at life, being my seven year old self again but this time knowing what to do. I know it's not possible, and that's what hurts even more. I can't go back, I can't undo the things I've already done or said. I just want a reset. I feel guilt and shame every day. I wish I had someone in my life to guide me, I have no one who really gets me it feels like. I wish I was better as a kid too, even though I hate to blame her. I had no talent, no goals, I wasn't encouraged or held or pushed to be great. I wish I was. I wish I could reset.

 

[itsgone2]

I imagine myself restarting at life, being my seven year old self again but this time knowing what to do.

Same. Wanting a reset. Knowing what to do now is so painful. Not blaming my parents but they never taught me anything. Life isn't that complicated, I should have done better anyway, but maybe you had a similar experience.

 

[Hollowman]

Me too, life could've been great.

 

[TheEmptyVoid]

I wish my life was great, it was back then, but now it's been 7 years of me being extremely depressed (depression means something like feeling empty, lack of motivation on anything, and does not really mean sadness). I literally have no idea what caused it, I try to remember, but I can't remember.

 

[Terrible_Life]

Many of us wish that … I'd wish a time machine would exist

 

[lost in the lilies]

I know what you mean. I think if I really could be granted one wish it would be to be able to wake up somewhere totally new where not a single person knows me. Free to just start fresh, live & carry myself the way I please without all of this weighing me down.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

The defining feeling of my life. It would have been easy to live rightly. Why did I do what I did instead?

 

[reticulator]

Haha yeah me too but that would be cheating wouldn't it. We all have to live with (or die with) the fuck ups that we have incurred in life. I bet most people serving life sentences would do anything to go back also, but there's no do overs or save restarts unfortunately.

The defining feeling of my life. It would have been easy to live rightly. Why did I do what I did instead?

Although in my case I'm not sure I could have done too much better. I'll always have mental illness and bipolar, and even if I was rich like Kanye I would still suffer like him.

I guess I would have told myself to buy up all the bitcoin in 2010 and I'd be rich now, life would be a lot easier but there would still always be this emptiness I feel.

 

[Karrikin]

It's a shame time moves only forward.

 

[kufajoy]

I would love to restart my life with a matched body and memory from previous life. Such a shame not going to happen

 

[haihaihai]

i've always thought abt going back in time and fixing all the mistakes i've made, restarting would be such a dream