I was meant to attempt today but woke up late.

[missingpeace]

I was wanting to drive out today but woke up with the demonic entities influencing my feelings on this whole situation. I also woke up later then expected. I wanted my life to end before nightfall today, unfortunately I will have to delay my plans for tomorrow. Hopefully I will wake up early tomorrow and execute everything like a machine no matter how I feel. I really want my ctb to be a sure thing!

 

[missingpeace]

I'm regretting it now, it's now another day of putting up with suffering and feeling like a masochist towards myself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing certainly can be torture and it sounds so horrible what you have to go through, so of course it's very much understandable wanting to be gone so badly. I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you are searching for.

 

[missingpeace]

Existing certainly can be torture and it sounds so horrible what you have to go through, so of course it's very much understandable wanting to be gone so badly. I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you are searching for.

Every day that I'm delaying my attempt is torment to put up with, I have to sit through this bitch entity overpowering me for the whole day, it hasn't let me pass bowels for the past 2 days, probably because of ctb attempts. Fuck it to hell, wish someone would just come and kill me.

 

[SilentSadness]

I have also had attempts fail for such petty reasons and I can relate to your suffering completely. Hopefully you can gain a little more luck in your life that seems more tragic than mine.

 

[Deathisbetter]

Every day that I'm delaying my attempt is torment to put up with, I have to sit through this bitch entity overpowering me for the whole day, it hasn't let me pass bowels for the past 2 days, probably because of ctb attempts. Fuck it to hell, wish someone would just come and kill me.

are you still with us?