I want to stop existing.

[Loner]

I cannot bear to exist anymore. I hate existing yet I must, to make my loved ones happy. This really is being unbearable. I wonder if anybody else is feeling this way and if they do, how do they cope with it? . I just want to be out of this world for good... now...

Thank you very much to everyone who reply, in advance.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I have no one, but yeah i constantly want to die

 

[CTB Dream]

Yea rly wish sdn disapre ,no wabt exst

 

[Ferret77]

I cannot bear to exist anymore. I hate existing yet I must, to make my loved ones happy. This really is being unbearable. I wonder if anybody else is feeling this way and if they do, how do they cope with it? . I just want to be out of this world for good... now...

Thank you very much to everyone who reply, in advance.

I wish I hadn't even existed in the first place. It's incredibly painful and agonizing. I don't even know who I am anymore, or maybe I do, and I just don't want to be this person. I don't know, why I exist. I don't do anything and I'm tired of being alive...It sucks. The truth is, there's almost nobody in my life at this point, because people always seem to just abandon me....But those few who are....Well, I don't want to traumatize them. I would say....Think about, if all the pain and suffering is truly worth it for you, in the end...If not, then I don't see a point in making others happy in the form of you suffering....

 

[day]

My copes are pretty hard despite having a plan to CTB in September. Usually self-harm and substance abuse is how I get by day to day.

We weren't meant to be treated this way, sorry OP.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah, I really relate. I'm holding on for others too- really just one other now. After that- while it still won't exactly be nice for people- I literally haven't seen them in years, some decades- I'm hoping that absence will make it easier for them.

All I'm doing though is treading water- and telling myself that too. I'm not planning on really taxing myself anymore. I don't need to 'succeed' in life now. I don't need to worry about retirement or old age or getting ill. I have my 'out' prepared. All I need to do now is try and hold on until I can use it. It's gotten to the point I don't particularly feel guilty about doing the bare minimum now too- I used to have such a strong work ethic. It's just weird now because part of me still worries but a bigger part of me is letting go. I know it won't be easy. I still need to support myself financially- that's going to create more unhappiness soon with a likely wage slave job. I'm just hoping I can distract myself enough to limp towards the finish line now!

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Having the wish to end existence in this world is fully understandable but unfortunately especially loved ones make it so difficult and this causes so much more pain for each one of us who want to leave in a peaceful and dignified way without hurting loved ones. I can relate to that a bit because especially loved ones are making me hesitate just doing my plan to ctb. I hope you can find peace!

 

[The anhedonic one]

I am completely alone in the world, yet I always feel so sorry for those of us here who desperately need to ctb but have family and friends holding them back.
This concern for loved ones chains them to this dreadful world of suffering.
So sorry you are feeling like this.
Existence really is a nightmare for some of us.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's really understandable just wishing to permanently cease existing as being free from everything certainly sounds so incredibly ideal and I get that it's so awful feeling trapped here, I also despise existing but the reality is that if one doesn't find a way to leave they have no choice but to continue. I see having the ability to exist here as being such a terrible punishment, finally leaving this world sadly feels like such a distance away to me even know every second is one second closer to death. But anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.