Venting I want to lift society of a burden by killing myself

[KillingPain267]

Then finally they won't need to behold such a grotesque being as me who just consumes and doesn't contribute.

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

Been there. I decided to start contributing. But turns out society viewed that as a burden, too.

I wish you peace, KP.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Honestly, there's nobody on this planet better or worse than anyone else.

 

[KillingPain267]

Honestly, there's nobody on this planet better or worse than anyone else.

Unless you ask Trump

 

[Afterglow]

Unless you ask Trump

the last person I'd ask for moral advice

youre not useless or a burden.

 

[KillingPain267]

Been there. I decided to start contributing. But turns out society viewed that as a burden, too.

I wish you peace, KP.

They don't want the burden to watch you die peacefully. Might hurt their little feelings.

the last person I'd ask for moral advice

youre not useless or a burden.

His advice would be huuuge

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

They don't want the burden to watch you die peacefully. Might hurt their little feelings.

? What's that mean?

 

[Crematoryy]

Then finally they won't need to behold such a grotesque being as me who just consumes and doesn't contribute.

You are contributing to society through your posts on this forum that impact countless readers. (Even if it is a negligible contribution).

Don't feel grotesque, none of this is your fault. You are just a reflection of the conditions that life has offered you. :)

 

[oneirataxia]

I feel like people love you more than you know, but are just more focused on themselves and their busy lives and heads to stop and help. We all love to think of suicide as getting rid of a burden, but honestly, let's be real. Whose friends and family even say that unless the "suicidee" is an objectively reprehensible person, like a rapist or something? People are going to be sad if you do this to yourself. Even if they get mad at you, or ignore you, or treat you unfairly. You're bound to be loved and needed by at least someone. This may not be articulated or expressed, and it's hard. You might be a victim of circumstance and feel especially isolated or alone because of very real factors. But depression has a way of singling you out and making you believe that you're somehow far more despicable and evil than everyone else for living an ordinary life and making ordinary mistakes. We all think we're more disgusting than everyone else. But this is because we witnessed our actions, and the ways we failed. We tally all our failures and lay in bed at night thinking of how we could've mitigated these failures. So has everyone else. It's best to try and remember this, and force yourself to be a little kinder to yourself.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Not to try to guilt trip you into staying but, if you are on benefits then, I'd say- accept them. You've obviously been assessed and deemed worthy of them. If it's your family supporting you- that's up to them. I suspect they'd rather support you financially though than experience your suicide.