I want to get worse.

[breatheout]

I honestly dont want to get better. all i can really think about is how badly i want to destroy my life. i literally want a shitty obsessive boyfriend who sneaks out for me, isolates me and makes me feel like shit. i want to do so much fucking drugs that i become addicted. is it bad i literally dont give a shit about getting better and want to fuck up my life and become so miserable i kill myself?

 

[AllAlone]

I understand where you are coming from. I want to kill myself but I am too weak to push through the pain. Maybe if my life gets bad enough it will give me the strength to actually end it.