I want to CTB but I'm scared

[Marguerite492]

I keep circling around this. I know i inevitably have no other options. I know I'll hurt my friends and family. I wish they didn't care. I wish they hated me. I hate living. Every day is miserable. My mom just tells me "everyone has bad days" but my life is hell. My good days I still think about blowing my brains out. I wish I had a gun, but I don't. I just wish I could disappear

 

[theboy]

me 2

 

[Someone123]

This is how so many of us here feel.

 

[hush hush]

I keep circling around this. I know i inevitably have no other options. I know I'll hurt my friends and family. I wish they didn't care. I wish they hated me. I hate living. Every day is miserable. My mom just tells me "everyone has bad days" but my life is hell. My good days I still think about blowing my brains out. I wish I had a gun, but I don't. I just wish I could disappear

What are you scared of since you don't have a gun?

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that it can be so awful feeling trapped in a life that is just constant, endless suffering. Suicide really can be so difficult and of course it shouldn't be. I really wish that leaving this world is as straightforward as just choosing to disappear. I've always wanted to just disappear and be forgotten about, it really sounds so ideal.