Venting I want to cbt

[sad_rain]

Right now I am at the point where what's the point of living life. I can't be asked anymore. I am loosing friends left right and centre for no reason I don't know why? Maybe it's my energy. My vibe?? Maybe people can feel I am being cold? Maybe the universe knows that I am suffering and doing everything to push me to the edge of my misery. I am loosing hope in finding any reason to live there is no point in it. I never am going to be okay. I am never going to be successful, I am never going to stop being shy or good at talking to people or get a job or not fail an exam or get over my fathers abuse or get out this victimhood. I will never find a genuine friend. My mum is the only person holding me back but I don't even know what I am going to do. I love her so much but I don't know if I can keep living in this world. I want to find a way out but I have no clue on a method? I was thinking SN is the way to go but I am not sure how to get it. Hanging I couldn't over come SI. Is paracetamol a good way? I just need a way out now

 

[Zegers]

Is paracetamol a good way?

No.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Sorry you have to go through this. It's awful. I suggest you have a look in the Suicide Resource Compilation linked in the sticky threads. There you can read about all different kinds of reliable methods and figure out one that suits you. I hope you can find peace!

Edit: Don't rush an attempt, it most likely wiill fail!! And that is only causing more pain and not relief!

 

[befree]

Is paracetamol a good way? I just need a way out now

No, it isn´t. Most overdoses don´t work, but can cause serious permanent organ damage. Don't do anything in a hurry.
I know as a new member you can´t use the search function yet.

Here you can find an overview of common methods and books:

Need ideas

I want to end things because I'm tired of feeling like a failure and always being wrong about things. I can barely be an adult and will never have more than a minimum wage job. What are ways to end things quickly and peacefully, preferably that I can hide from a spouse that works from home?

sanctioned-suicide.net

considering methods

whats the best kind of method that's easily accessible. I was considering Hannah Baker style but that seems super messy and painful. I don't have any way to get my hands on N or anything like that sooo

sanctioned-suicide.net

This is just a general information. I do not encourage you to commit suicide and to use these methods. You act on your own responsibility.

 

[sad_rain]

Sorry you have to go through this. It's awful. I suggest you have a look in the Suicide Resource Compilation linked in the sticky threads. There you can read about all different kinds of reliable methods and figure out one that suits you. I hope you can find peace!

Edit: Don't rush an attempt, it most likely wiill fail!! And that is only causing more pain and not relief!

Thank you so much I really appreciate it. I won't rush into anything I don't want more pain :(

No, it isn´t. Most overdoses don´t work, but can cause serious permanent organ damage. Don't do anything in a hurry.
I know as a new member you can´t use the search function yet.

Here you can find an overview of common methods and books:

Need ideas

I want to end things because I'm tired of feeling like a failure and always being wrong about things. I can barely be an adult and will never have more than a minimum wage job. What are ways to end things quickly and peacefully, preferably that I can hide from a spouse that works from home?

sanctioned-suicide.net

considering methods

whats the best kind of method that's easily accessible. I was considering Hannah Baker style but that seems super messy and painful. I don't have any way to get my hands on N or anything like that sooo

sanctioned-suicide.net

This is just a general information. I do not encourage you to commit suicide and to use these methods. You act on your own responsibility.

Thank you very much. I will look through it but when would I be able to access the search filter?

 

[befree]

You have to post more. I´m not even sure how many days it takes.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's certainly understandable wishing to be free from all the suffering that existing brings, I get that it's so tiring and dreadful feeling trapped here, existence is just too cruel. But anyway I hope that you eventually find what you are searching for, best wishes.