I want to be seen but I get lost in the crowd

[todestrieb]

I want to get better. I want to wake up and not feel that sense of dread and doom. I want to be like everybody else.

Today I made an outcry. I literally stood in front of several adults and said "I want to die," but not one person cared. That's why it's so hard to recover, when you're so so alone and people just look right past you. I continue to take my therapists advice. I do things for myself. Take time to be alone. Find myself lost in a crowd. Snap this stupid rubber band over and over hundreds of times a day. I'm not sure what the future holds but I know that I want to give it the ol college try before I make my decision to check out. I just wish it wasn't so hard to get the support network needed to start grasping for a foothold.

At the end of the day though, the world doesn't end because I'm sad so there's always an option available. That's what I keep close to my heart.

 

[D&D]

I want to get better. I want to wake up and not feel that sense of dread and doom. I want to be like everybody else.

Today I made an outcry. I literally stood in front of several adults and said "I want to die," but not one person cared. That's why it's so hard to recover, when you're so so alone and people just look right past you. I continue to take my therapists advice. I do things for myself. Take time to be alone. Find myself lost in a crowd. Snap this stupid rubber band over and over hundreds of times a day. I'm not sure what the future holds but I know that I want to give it the ol college try before I make my decision to check out. I just wish it wasn't so hard to get the support network needed to start grasping for a foothold.

At the end of the day though, the world doesn't end because I'm sad so there's always an option available. That's what I keep close to my heart.

You do that - Get better. For yourself. Not to be like everybody else. But to be like yourself. Keep on keeping it close to your heart. It is your life.

Wishing you the best.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you can find the support you need and manage to get better if that is what you want. This life is so tiring. I wish you the best whatever happens.