i want everyone to feel guilty for my death for the rest of their lives.

[ebg]

has anyone else thought of leaving a note filled with hatred to make other people feel guilt of your death for the rest of their lives...? let me elaborate.

i dont wanna leave cheesy & sugarcoated notes behind like "this is nobody's fault", "i'm free now", etc etc. NO! i wanna blame everyone and say "it's all your fault that i did this, yes you couldve done smth but you didnt so now you have to live with this for the rest of your life." i want to haunt them forever. i don't care about them. they ruined my life.

but at the same time, having this much hatred in my life keeps me alive. i think ill decide to end myself when i stop having these thoughts? or... idk. lets see what the future holds.

Slay

 

[clownspoe]

I feel the same way. My parents have ruined my life by putting me through a shit ton of trauma and monitoring every little thing I do. It fills me with rage even thinking about it. Although I still have a lot to live for rn, if I do ctb I will make sure to call out the people who have directly caused me so much pain by constantly obsessing over me, my social life, my grades and my beliefs.

They may not even feel the guilt because according to them, anyone who commits suicide is a ''horrible, satanic human being and they deserve to go to hell''....but I still want them to know that they were the ones behind my declining mental health.

 

[frankfurt101]

Same boat, but I'm waiting for Valentine's Day. I'm gonna go to my city and go to their dumb little rose garden thing they do then shoot myself in front of all the happy couples. That way everyone is either angry traumatized or guilty. Might sound selfish but I mean at this point who cares?

 

[nattys5thtoenail]

Be careful with that…if your attempt fails and someone reads the note it could end badly. I can't tell you what to do though

Just make sure that you 100% want to CTB if you're going to do that, lock into your method so you don't have to face awkward repercussions.

 

[Leiot]

Not really. I just want people to forget about me.

Me, too. I have suicidal thoughts are because of what I am, what I've done and how I've lived my life. I can't really blame it on anyone.

 

[nattys5thtoenail]

No, that's cruel

Depends on what they did, for petty drama I wouldn't but if they genuinely ruined my life then I'd do it idgaf

 

[divinemistress36]

They might feel bad at first but eventually they will move on

 

[theolivanderroach]

I used to want this when I was younger. I just don't care anymore. Whatever happens after will no longer be of my concern.

 

[aespa]

has anyone else thought of leaving a note filled with hatred to make other people feel guilt of your death for the rest of their lives...? let me elaborate.

i dont wanna leave cheesy & sugarcoated notes behind like "this is nobody's fault", "i'm free now", etc etc. NO! i wanna blame everyone and say "it's all your fault that i did this, yes you couldve done smth but you didnt so now you have to live with this for the rest of your life." i want to haunt them forever. i don't care about them. they ruined my life.

but at the same time, having this much hatred in my life keeps me alive. i think ill decide to end myself when i stop having these thoughts? or... idk. lets see what the future holds.

to be honest i've been feeling this way and i probably will do it. my life is so fucked up and what are they gonna do? slap me? lol

 

[Biblom2000]

Apparently everyone can move on and move on with their lives except us.

 

[divinemistress36]

Apparently everyone can move on and move on with their lives except us.

This is so true, they will still experience joy, be able to work, have hobbys ect

 

[StrawberryRed]

Same boat, but I'm waiting for Valentine's Day. I'm gonna go to my city and go to their dumb little rose garden thing they do then shoot myself in front of all the happy couples. That way everyone is either angry traumatized or guilty. Might sound selfish but I mean at this point who cares?

Dude what now why would u do that

 

[guitarsteve]

has anyone else thought of leaving a note filled with hatred to make other people feel guilt of your death for the rest of their lives...? let me elaborate.

i dont wanna leave cheesy & sugarcoated notes behind like "this is nobody's fault", "i'm free now", etc etc. NO! i wanna blame everyone and say "it's all your fault that i did this, yes you couldve done smth but you didnt so now you have to live with this for the rest of your life." i want to haunt them forever. i don't care about them. they ruined my life.

but at the same time, having this much hatred in my life keeps me alive. i think ill decide to end myself when i stop having these thoughts? or... idk. lets see what the future hold

people will be glad I'm gone

 

[daley]

has anyone else thought of leaving a note filled with hatred to make other people feel guilt of your death for the rest of their lives...? let me elaborate.

i dont wanna leave cheesy & sugarcoated notes behind like "this is nobody's fault", "i'm free now", etc etc. NO! i wanna blame everyone and say "it's all your fault that i did this, yes you couldve done smth but you didnt so now you have to live with this for the rest of your life." i want to haunt them forever. i don't care about them. they ruined my life.

On an abstract level, this is not a "pro-choice" thing to do.
Such a note will have to portray suicide as wrong and then use that to make other people feel bad.
A pro-choice suicide note would portray suicide as an acceptable, even rational option.

From that perspective pro-choice forums should discourage guilt-tripping others.

On the other hand, there might be people who deserve it. What do I know....

 

[Biblom2000]

This is so true, they will still experience joy, be able to work, have hobbys ect

why no you?

 

[ctb2soble]

I personally dont feel this way. Maybe because despite my fucked up upbringing, me wanting to CTB is completely divorced from anything anyone has ever done or not done to me. I'm just tired of being trapped here on Earth in a slowly decaying body.

 

[supremelimbo]

Not everyone, but som,e very specific people

 

[passer-by]

It makes me feel very evil but yes, I carry similar sentiments.

 

[F@#$]

I'm formulating a cruel vengeful exit plan. Fuck the world.

 

[OnlyOneSolution]

has anyone else thought of leaving a note filled with hatred to make other people feel guilt of your death for the rest of their lives...? let me elaborate.

i dont wanna leave cheesy & sugarcoated notes behind like "this is nobody's fault", "i'm free now", etc etc. NO! i wanna blame everyone and say "it's all your fault that i did this, yes you couldve done smth but you didnt so now you have to live with this for the rest of your life." i want to haunt them forever. i don't care about them. they ruined my life.

but at the same time, having this much hatred in my life keeps me alive. i think ill decide to end myself when i stop having these thoughts? or... idk. lets see what the future holds.

I suck. I have tried ODing and failed. Woke up on a respirator... The worst.

Nobody knew about my plans. When I thought I was going to be gone, I felt euphoric. I didn't hate anyone. I didn't care about anything AND I did not leave any notes.

When I'm alive and feeling stuck, hating life...that is when all of those emotions swirl around in my head. My life is nobody's fault. My woes are my own.

 

[voc_89]

nothing is wrong with the note. Let people know how much they hurt u. How their actions ruined u. Just note that the intended result may not pan out. Example, one of the most recent high profile ctbs in my country was a kid (14) that ctb due to bullying (expressed in his note). The bully in question made fun of his ctb. And, based on the news media thus far, is not facing any
repercussions nor investigation......

 

[İnilerim]

Truly awful people will not be affected by it, they might even make fun of your passing, but most likely simply won't care.
The only ones who will care are decent, empathetic people.

 

[nightdeer]

sometimes, yes i want to blame her. but i feel like she is too kind to be blamed. idk, i love her but also hate her

 

[divinemistress36]

why no you?

Depression doesnt let me enjoy anything

 

[Biblom2000]

Depression doesnt let me enjoy anything

You are a human right? We should not align ourselves too much, it is not that depression does not leave you, you focus more on depression than your well-being. There is no logical sense to be alive but there is no logical sense to be dead either, things happen and that's it, I know it's not as easy as saying be happy and the depression goes away.

 

[Felodese]

Personally don't want everyone to feel bad about me ctb, but definitely a few people.
Problem is those people probably won't care.

but at the same time, having this much hatred in my life keeps me alive. i think ill decide to end myself when i stop having these thoughts?

Hate and and anger has kept a lot of people alive...

"Hate is funny. Love isn't. Love can kill you. Hate keeps you alive."
- Carol Grace

"Let fury have the hour, anger can be power. Do you know that you can use it?'
- The Clash

 

[theneverending]

No, that's cruel

No, that's cruel

Is it though? When the people mess up your whole life?