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MakeUpAName4Me

MakeUpAName4Me

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Aug 9, 2022
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I don't want a funeral, I just want to fade out of existence, to not be talked about or remembered. The idea of killing myself and it being a big deal for all the people who knew me and then they're all talking about me makes me fucking sick, it's almost stopping me from going through with everything….I wish I never existed
 
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CTB Dream

CTB Dream

Injury damage disabl hard talk no argu make fun et
Sep 17, 2022
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Understand feel sorry this human real problem make Hardee ctb many way. This slso because ctb harder make big topic, people ctb peace not problem. Not want rememb want go
 
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Living_Hurts_so_Much

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Jul 30, 2020
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I don't want a funeral, I just want to fade out of existence, to not be talked about or remembered. The idea of killing myself and it being a big deal for all the people who knew me and then they're all talking about me makes me fucking sick, it's almost stopping me from going through with everything….I wish I never existed
I feel that way too. I wish I was never born.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I also just want to be forgotten about, it does sound ideal, but the way that I see it, it could never matter to me how people would react if I was to die. I simply wouldn't be there at that point. One would need a consciousness to care about anything in the first place. The non existent have no problems and that is why the thought of death is so comforting.
 
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yourrealname

yourrealname

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Aug 14, 2022
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waow this is incredibly relatable
 
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Cerulea

Cerulea

Student
Sep 19, 2022
101
Same for me. I don't feel like I was ever welcome here, or supposed to be here, so it's hard to want anything other than wanting all mention of my existence to be removed. Really hard to do in the modern age, unfortunately.
 
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dustyfurcollector

dustyfurcollector

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Dec 17, 2021
303
I feel this deeply. And it is my goal, as soon as my mom dies, to go through her stuff and destroy every picture of me. I want no representation of me ever again.
 
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killmeiwannadie

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Sep 19, 2022
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I don't want a funeral, I just want to fade out of existence, to not be talked about or remembered. The idea of killing myself and it being a big deal for all the people who knew me and then they're all talking about me makes me fucking sick, it's almost stopping me from going through with everything….I wish I never existed
i've spent that last week on this issue alone. i hate the idea of being remembered by certain people. i wish i could erase myself from their memories. i hate how fake certain people will be. i dont want a funeral because i don't really want to be remembered by people who never even bothered to get to know who i am as a person. i never even wanted to be here in the firet place. funerals are really just spectacles for the people who are left behind and I don't really think a lot of people I would be leaving behind deserve to even have that kind of experience where I'm concerned. I wish that I could control every aspect of who is even allowed to be near my ashes when I die. I could name a couple people who I think might be hurt by my loss and I wish I could just erase myself from their mind all together so they don't have to even think about me when I die like I don't want a funeral at all. I don't even want my death to have an impact for most people. I just want it to be like I never existed
 
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PurpleMonkey

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May 3, 2018
62
Same. When my Facebook account got locked, it was a relief. I was finally cut off from all the people who I had disappointed; no longer able to see people sharing milestones and accomplishments I'll never see; no longer experiencing the humiliation of having my employment and education status remain unchanged for more than a decade. Post-mortem ceremony should be in remembrance of somebody and I don't want any reflection on my failures.

So yeah, no funeral and no will. Just cremate me and do whatever with my ashes. A grave would be an insult to the dead buried beside me.
 
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