I think this evening..

[Halo13]

Well this was special.
When I was begun feeling dizzy. My body startet immediately som strange emergancy programm and I couldn stay in the room but the symptomes were so advanced that I need to call the ambulance.
The carbon monoxide marker shows 38%.

Well now Im in the hospital and cant get of. I'm a prisoner till monday. Than and the doctor call again.

Oh, i'm gettimg tacor 3times a day :D

Oh no! Sorry to hear that. How are you feeling?

 

[fisil]

I hope you found peace. Good night sweet prince.

 

[spanishguy22]

I hope you found peace. Good night sweet prince.

He's alive, unfortunately for him I guess.

 

[JadedGray]

Sorry things didn't work out like you had hoped.

 

[Escaper Boy]

I hope things will get better for you soon. I'm so sorry that you couldn't get the outcome that you desired. Have a good rest and take care of yourself. Wish you well as quickly as possible.

 

[Soul]

I'm sorry, Seaghost! But thank you so much for keeping us informed - that means a lot! I hope you're feeling ok now and that you're being well treated. Can you say it was an accident? (If you want to avoid psych treatment, that is.) Please recover smoothly and keep us posted. Hugs

 

[Seaghost]

Hi Guys,
thanks for your replys and whishes.

I've been awake since a few minutes. Gettin my tavor soon ;).
Besides of that I don't know if its's good to be stli here on earth or not.
Some people in reallife who are knowing me angry cause what I have done

Edit: send too early
I feel soory for them but there are always people who can't understand what you do and why. It's ok. Just continuing to be alone. But will be impossible for a time to perform another try.
For the moment I need to gather strength. But the hurt in my heart is coming back...maybe a goog sign...

 

[Soul]

Seaghost, anger is because they were/are scared. I bet they care about you, and I hope that will show in a good and supportive way very soon. Be good to yourself. Maybe things will improve for you now. I hope so.

 

[Halo13]

Hi Guys,
thanks for your replys and whishes.

I've been awake since a few minutes. Gettin my tavor soon ;).
Besides of that I don't know if its's good to be stli here on earth or not.
Some people in reallife who are knowing me angry cause what I have done

Edit: send too early
I feel soory for them but there are always people who can't understand what you do and why. It's ok. Just continuing to be alone. But will be impossible for a time to perform another try.
For the moment I need to gather strength. But the hurt in my heart is coming back...maybe a goog sign...

I'm sure you'll get some rest with the tavor! Try to gain your strength then decide. My thoughts are with you.

 

[Roberto]

Thank you guys .

If I had to recommend the inner setting of ctb, it would be the one you transmit. Without being angry to anyone, some kind of happiness about the future, delicate.
I don't recommend it when you are furious, you want to hurt someone with your acts, or a recent sadness occurred by a temporal circumstance.
Find peace & love, whatever you choose.

 

[Seaghost]

That sucks bud. Hope they don't decide to sanction you.

Sorry I forget your Question. With tavor its a bit difficult :).

The only sanction is to stay her for a few nights in the closed department at the hospital. Sorry can't get no better translation for that

 

[Empty Smile]

Sorry I forget your Question. With tavor its a bit difficult :).

The only sanction is to stay her for a few nights in the closed department at the hospital. Sorry can't get no better translation for that

Hope you get to go home Monday, and the hospital doesn't decide that you need psychiatric evaluation due to your attempt, and keep you longer.

 

[Seaghost]

I'll stay from my own here und go to the open station with other people with depression. I really don't want to go home now. It's the appartment of my ex-girlfriend too and I can't see the things there - our furniture etc...jesus. no.

 

[Seaghost]

Now that a little time passed by I have a feeling god or whoever slammed me the door to the other side right in my face.

So I'm whisperihg out while hiding in a micehole: why not? Why not now?
There are other souls waitin for my place. Mayby a complicatedt birth and the baby is in danger of death...

Before I tried to talk to god or whos there. I made a soul deal by myself. The remaining power of me should go to my ex girlfriend. But why something prevented this?

What a shit

 

[Seaghost]

Its deep in the night 3:54.
My room mate has problems and the whole time he's vomiting but thevsupervisor are no really helping him. But he has to left the room. And Im getting another pill to sleep.

Things like that in the early beginnig presses people there where they began to ask is it really correct to live!!!

 

[Halo13]

Hugs. I hope you're able to get some sleep tonight.

 

[Seaghost]

It's done.
I'm at the open station of the hospital.
Everyhing is friendly. Marshmallow peace...
If you ask if I would be rather on the other side of life - yes

 

[Halo13]

It's done.
I'm at the open station of the hospital.
Everyhing is friendly. Marshmallow peace...
If you ask if I would be rather on the other side of life - yes

Hugs. Can you explain a bit more?

 

[Seaghost]

What you wanted to know exactly :)?

 

[Halo13]

What you wanted to know exactly :)?

How're you feeling now? :)

 

[Seaghost]

Well I don't know what to say. I'm feeling I'm in a bubble.
Sometimes the bubble gets chapped and dark things are commin in. Dark things then already in it.
I hope all things stop and I can breath. But it don't seem so. I have to carry on

 

[Halo13]

Well I don't know what to say. I'm feeling I'm in a bubble.
Sometimes the bubble gets chapped and dark things are commin in. Dark things then already in it.
I hope all things stop and I can breath. But it don't seem so. I have to carry on

Are you still in the hospital? Hugs.

 

[Seaghost]

Yes

 

[Halo13]

Yes

Aww, do you know how long they're keeping you?

 

[Seaghost]

No and I didn't ask till now because for me this hospital is some kind of safe point.
But I wouldn't refuse to say I will it try one more. I don't know if it's good to be on this planet.

Aww, do you know how long they're keeping you?

 

[Seaghost]

Did I said safe point?
Well things changing from time to time. Need to talk a few time. There was much pressure in me. The doc let me spoke thre sentences then gave me a lollipop with chili..thats called a skill. Should get you down.
Idiot...

 

[Halo13]

Did I said safe point?
Well things changing from time to time. Need to talk a few time. There was much pressure in me. The doc let me spoke thre sentences then gave me a lollipop with chili..thats called a skill. Should get you down.
Idiot...

At least you got candy and chili! Sorry the doctor didn't let you talk, they always seem to do that in the hospital. Hopefully you're still getting some tavor

 

[Seaghost]

Yeah I'm already on Tavor.
I'm glad when I can get off this cracy house. Got "nice" news from my sister today. She said I'm just searching for pity and attention.
Can't wait to see the bus...feeling sad

 

[Halo13]

Yeah I'm already on Tavor.
I'm glad when I can get off this cracy house. Got "nice" news from my sister today. She said I'm just searching for pity and attention.
Can't wait to see the bus...feeling sad

Hugs, sorry your sister said that, that is unfair and judgmental. I hope you get to leave the hospital soon

 

[Seaghost]

I need do stay here for a while. The contract of the apartment of me and my ex ends this may. And for me theres no new one in sight. The care support will handle this for me.
So the whole situation is extreml stressful for me.
I can't think of that our houshold beeing cracked up.
And she with her new guy. It's just horrible to think he touch her gently. Look at her when she sleeps and doing other things with her .
I regret so much calling the ambulance...I should be dead long ago.
Wanted to cry for help out loud.