Venting I think I've finally given up 100%

[Nanako]

It's a very weird feeling. I've never felt THIS hopeless in my entire life. I feel so weak physically, a level of anxiety unlike any I've experienced before. I want nothing, I just want to die. I thought I was suicidal before but I was wrong, I still had some attachment to life. Now, I have nothing. I'm staring at my screen wide-eyed. I'm empty. If there is a God, I'm begging him to save me right now. I can't believe how cruel this world can be. I don't want to do this to my parents, despite everything I still love them, but I can't go on like this, I think I'd actually go insane.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Sorry you are going through this. It's horrifying how deep we can go into the pit of despair.

 

[Yaffle]

I don't believe in any god but I do believe in you!

If you want to be saved get into the recovery forum, phone the suicide crisis helpline in your country and reach out to anyone you trust for help.

Stay strong

 

[tiger b]

Hi

I read your spirituality thread, but didn't pitch in.

You don't need to 'want' anything. I believe strongly all prayers are heard. Whatever labels you put on things, or what is doing the hearing, is just that.

There is a peace beyond the hopelessness, trust in that at least. I hope it finds you. It can. That's as good a start as any, in my opinion.

You may well get some answers to the questions you were asking.