- Dec 24, 2018
It's a very weird feeling. I've never felt THIS hopeless in my entire life. I feel so weak physically, a level of anxiety unlike any I've experienced before. I want nothing, I just want to die. I thought I was suicidal before but I was wrong, I still had some attachment to life. Now, I have nothing. I'm staring at my screen wide-eyed. I'm empty. If there is a God, I'm begging him to save me right now. I can't believe how cruel this world can be. I don't want to do this to my parents, despite everything I still love them, but I can't go on like this, I think I'd actually go insane.