Venting I think i really fucked up

[CerebralVortex]

Well, clearly, I'm not dead yet. I was sure I'd be done with my last attempt, but partial somehow still scared the fuck outa me. I still plan to ctb soon, maybe even tn, but now I have another problem. I decided to give away my whole card collection to one of my friends, and told him to open it over the weekend(fully planning to be gone by then), but well, I'm not dead right now, am I??
He messaged literally asking me, "Hey are you ok, are you gonna kill yourself," and obviously I said no, but now i feel horrible about lying to him like that. He's one of my best friends and we've been thru a lot together in the past few years. I really don't know what the fuck I'm doing anymore. My comp sci final is tmrw and I haven't studied or looked at the review material at all so that's basically out of the question unless I can power through another full night of studying(which i really don't think I can do). I have no clue what my point even is, but fuck it i don't care this is just some vent post anyway. Anything is appreciated, but I might not look at it

 

[Griever]

 

[JamesMoonDerWater]

Giving my 2 cents, why not call your friend and be honest? He literally asked if you were gonna ctb, he must be worried and surelly cares a lot about you! If theres someone who would like to help is him.

In any case, i trully hope that u get better❤

 

[CerebralVortex]

Giving my 2 cents, why not call your friend and be honest? He literally asked if you were gonna ctb, he must be worried and surelly cares a lot about you! If theres someone who would like to help is him.

In any case, i trully hope that u get better❤

Thank you for the advice. I honestly might, as he's been pretty reliable in the past, but I'm still very unsure. Thank you for your thoughts and support though

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

I give you my sympathies. Dealing with this while trying to also get a degree is the worst.

 

[moonflow3r]

I got finals next week and also have no fucking clue what's going on . I'm afraid I've also fucked up with no return

 

[Sweetcheeks]

Even if you fail, I've been there. You will be okay. Find that friend and talk to them. They care. We all do.