Venting i think i am the most unloveable person alive

[eternaldeath]

everyone who says loves me either actually doesn't or falls away, my closest friends eventually find reasons to hate me, why am i like this?? ill never be normal, ill never find love, ill never find a true friendship. im too ugly or too annoying, it's always one of them that ruins me to people, or maybe it's just me. maybe it's just the reason i am myself that people dont like me. i wish i could live in solitairy but at the same time my biggest fear is being lonely, dying alone. but maybe that's just what i have to do to break free from the cycle of loving and hating

 

[wonderfulheaven]

i understand this, it's either i suffer in complete loneliness or suffer in fear of abandonment and there is no winning