Venting I remember when watching disabled people used to give me pause

[ChildrensITV]

When I used to feel down, when I would stumble on some person who was disabled and found the will to live, it would give me pause for a while. I would think, at least I don't have things quite as bad as this person. It would make me "thankful" to be me for about an hour, and then wear off quickly.

Now I don't give a fuck. My burden is too much for me. I am not concerned with others'. Obviously I wish them well, but I am not sticking around cuz some disabled person is not suicidal.

I can't stand my life NOW, so if I were disabled, I would be gone already. The worst thing would be to be disabled but unable to CTB, so there is that. At least I can CTB.

 

[Exiled spirit]

I definitely can relate. Sometimes when I complain about things in life people say to me: "look at those who had it worse than you". And that can give me some comfort, but it also reminds me of how cruel and unfair life is.

 

[SilentSadness]

I agree that other people having a comparatively worse life doesn't say anything about someone's quality of life. After all, life itself is horrendous and some people can't handle as much pain as others. To me, disability is just one of the horrors life has to offer, and even if you are not disabled there is the possibility of becoming it. I wish to die and the idea of being forced to live for decades while disabled is one of the most horrific thoughts I can imagine. I hope you find peace from your burden.

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

seeing extremely disabled people has always just made me wanna die even more (it never made me thankful in anyway because it only reminded me of how fragile and irreplaceable our bodies are), just to feel reassurance and relief to know that I won't have to endure that amount of misery that some humans are going through;

and I totally agree, the worst possible scenario is to be so disabled that you can't CTB and not be eligible for voluntary euthanasia.

 

[FuneralCry]

I bet those people with debilitating disabilities are only pretending not to be suicidal in front of others, and in my case seeing other people in really horrific situations just reminds me that this world is hell and makes me want to cease existing even more. There is simply no limit as to how much one can end up tortured in this world which is why I view it as always being preferable to not exist.