Venting I relapsed again

[blank_slab]

Writing this on my phone late at night so it might have some spelling mistakes and just sound bad
Yeah title says ut all I relapsed after 8 days of no SH i felt all alone like no ine ever has or ever will care for me it doesn't help that i think i made my partner mad somehow but anyway right after finishing watch the classic tetris championshups i decided it wasn't worth it and started cutting my chest with my butterfly knife i dont think i got in too deep and i don't know if i'm happy or dissapointed about that so here i am laying down with some napkin i found on my bed sitting on my chest so my sweatshirt doesn't get too bloody and i'm just wondering why i do these things to myself who knows yeah thats that sorry for the long read and thanks to anyone who read it

 

[AllFoxedOut]

8 days of no SH is an accomplishment. when I SH it's usually because I need to release a huge amount of pent up emotion. grief, sadness, anger or whatever.

just try to tend to your wounds as best you can and forgive yourself for relapsing. speaking as someone of multiple addictions, I have relapsed many times. it just happens

 

[spøgelse]

it hapepns to everyone we just need to learn to deal with it move on and try again

 

[SoftWorries]

I was able to get over self harm when I became emotionally neutral to it. I recognized it as a coping mechanism and that I was pushed to it only when I felt pushed into a corner. And that it wasn't my fault to be pushed so far away from any comfort. I started to learn empathy for myself.

I haven't self harmed in over a year now after doing so since I was 7 years old

 

[feder]

You sdhould be proud of the amount of time you spent without sh, relapsing Is a normal thing and you don't have to feel guilty about it.
It helps to accept it as a sign of progress even, I think we relapse the most when our brain thinks that something we are used to is starting to slip away. You just need a little more time.

 

[nightshade00]

It always sucks to relapse, but congrats on staying clean for over a week!