i regret jumping from the train tracks as i felt the train approaching

[housecats]

on november 21st of 2025 i tried to commit suicide by laying on the train tracks.
I flew to a foreign country to end my life somewhere far away and disappear, visit a beloved place before I die, but i ended up panicking when i felt the impending doom that was coming towards my direction and jumped. and i regret this every second of my life now. it never gets better. no one felt bad for me for trying to end my life, everyone just hated me for it. no one visited me at the hospital except my boyfriend and when i returned all my nightmares came true. i am trapped. im all alone in this world. life is nothing but an endless nightmare.

 

[apooka]

im sorry that happened to you. i hope things get better soon

 

[tonicer]

Shit. That was my plan also. Laying my neck on the tracks and let the train decapitate me. Maybe jumping is better?! Once you jump there is no way back. When i see videos about people getting hit by trains on run over by big trucks it's all over so quickly that i never thought about the mental part when you try to do it on purpose. Maybe you couldn't do it because it's not your time yet?!

 

[hurts2b]

Did you feel trapped before? Or is that a new feeling?

You don't have to answer obviously. But I always feel trapped (and I haven't done anything) so I'm curious if your attempt caused or worsened that feeling.

 

[wantingdignity]

I'm so sorry. I really hope life gets easier for you. I hope you soon gain whatever it is that you need to get out of your current situation.

Going through a suicide attempt can fuck with you for a while. Go easy on yourself. It's something that will take a while to process.