Venting i really hate how all my trauma is sexual, everyone uses it against me.

[cigaretteinthesnow]

i'm not going to get into all the details here and i'll likely never tell anyone the details. i've tried in the past but it has always been used against me. i have no one who really cares about me, just random men that give me attention because i can't make any real friends. so badly do i want to be part of a cute, all-female friend group but everyone looks at me weird. maybe it's my autism and how mentally ill i am. my arm is covered in scars that'll never fade, so i understand why people look at me like i'm a freak.

but yeah, that's really it. i'll probably continue to get abused for the rest of my life or until i kill myself. all i want, though, is to be loved.

 

[theendoftheroad]

Most people are shallow and can barely understand basic empathy. I'm sorry you're having to experience this

 

[Aflame5926]

my arm is covered in scars that'll never fade, so i understand why people look at me like i'm a freak.

so why the F do you care about the others.
yes you have scars and probally some trauma's aswell (multiple). the only way forward is to own them.
people getting scared because your scars? then those people you dont want to talk to.

its also a thing you need to do. accept the scars you.
make the scars you lesser valueble? are you merchantdise?

ya not. ya human being. you need to search who you want to be and who to be with.
everything is easier said of done but still. that the only way i see moving forward for you.