Venting I really feel like god is punishing me

[true-ending]

i'm not religious but it feels like the world is out to get me. everyone i'm friends with abandons me and when i try to make new friends i fuck it up due to accidentally making some sort of social faux pas. i wish i wasn't autistic. I wish i was normal so i wouldnt have to be alone all the time. It's not fair. Idon't get what I did wrong. Whatever I did, I'm sorry. I don't know why every time something makes me happy it immediately gets ruined.

 

[Crow_88]

Is okay. We are here! At least you have people on this site!

 

[TornReality]

I sorta know how you feel.
Happiness usually ends in chaos and hatred.
Realize YOU are normal. Other people are different.

 

[LimpandNumb]

You will find your tribe :)
Is there a neurodiverse gathering near you?

 

[true-ending]

You will find your tribe :)
Is there a neurodiverse gathering near you?

Unfortunately, no. Most of my friends are also neurodiverse but with far less social struggles, which makes the excuse of "I am autistic." seem a lot less valid to them.

 

[LimpandNumb]

Unfortunately, no. Most of my friends are also neurodiverse but with far less social struggles, which makes the excuse of "I am autistic." seem a lot less valid to them.

We are all different. Would you feel able to provide a space in your community?