I partial hanged myself to self harm so I could try to mask

[ventingfrustrations]

I partial hanged myself to self harm so I could try to mask my depression on a group walk

I partial hanged myself to self harm so I could try to mask my depression on a group walk

Still here still in pain

 

[rotten]

I'm sorry your pain has gotten to that point, please be safe.

 

[ventingfrustrations]

I have to see if I can have the same effect if I do it with my hands
Tomorrow

 

[ventingfrustrations]

I'm debating doing partial again
Definitely going to choke myself but I'm debating whether to use a belt
I'll eat breakfast first

 

[fallingasl33p]

How does it help you mask? Just curious as someone that cuts to help ground myself instead.

 

[ventingfrustrations]

How does it help you mask? Just curious as someone that cuts to help ground myself instead.

I don't know I think it's the rush because I choke the arteries and then I feel better
I have to do it in private though because I usually can't stay on my feet
cutting doesn't work for me it only hurts and I don't get that rush

 

[ventingfrustrations]

I stabbed myself with a paper clip today because I'm a stupid idiot who can't even keep ahold of a key to my mailbox
2nd day of self harm

 

[ventingfrustrations]

Told my therapist about my self harm

 

[lonesomedrifter]

I can relate to this a lot. In the past I would do this, almost pass out and then panic and get up. I would get this rush of feeling alive and adrenaline and tingles in my arms. Its very weird, but it was a way to cope

 

[ventingfrustrations]

I regret it cause it just hurts now but I stabbed myself with a paper clip
Sorry in advance if I post anything wierd cause tomorrow I might get kava drunk
Definitely still passively/actively suicidal btw
And going crazy from depression

 

[ventingfrustrations]

If I kill myself instead of dying randomly i think I'll be the first one in my family who was successful in it

 

[dead dav]

I also choke myself to self harm use a belt usually I have caused hemeraging around my eyes feel good after doesn't last

 

[ventingfrustrations]

I also choke myself to self harm use a belt usually I have caused hemeraging around my eyes feel good after doesn't last

Sorry for that I don't have the will to go that far I only do it until I get lightheaded
I've also stabbed myself with a paper clip when I lost 200$ on a stupid therapist that I hated luckily I found a better one but I am weaker than you in that regard but I hope you find peace
I've not self harmed in a couple days but I'm having mental breakdowns constantly

 

[dead dav]

Sorry to hear that I didn't harm for 5 years but due to circumstances started again I punch and slap myself also used a knife to scratch my chest

 

[ventingfrustrations]

I think I might become audio schizophrenic then visual schizophrenic because it keeps on happening that I keep hearing my name
No ones around

 

[dead dav]

Aww that's rough