I ordered my SN.

[lonelyandsad]

My SN has been shipped. I'm equally afraid that I will use and that I won't use it. I've been to residential treatment recently as well as inpatient. I've been in weekly therapy for years. I was supposed to call my therapist before I ordered, and I know she'd want me to call now that it'll get here in a few days. I don't think I will, but I did want to tell someone. So I'm posting here.

 

[FuneralCry]

At least having the SN means that you will have a reliable way to exit for when the time feels right. But anyway, I wish you the best.

 

[lebrodude]

I'm still working up the will to actually order it.

I have it in my basket but I just can't seem to do it.

Guess I feel once I've ordered it that's the wheels in motion to the inevitable.

 

[SenseOfLoss]

I'm still working up the will to actually order it.

I have it in my basket but I just can't seem to do it.

Guess I feel once I've ordered it that's the wheels in motion to the inevitabl

Hey, I am in the same status quo. I ordered SN before and the ordering process hung up. Now I'm about to order again and I don't dare - but for fear that the delivery might be discovered by customs... Yes, and of course I'm also afraid to go through with it then.

 

[lonelyandsad]

I'm still working up the will to actually order it.

I have it in my basket but I just can't seem to do it.

Guess I feel once I've ordered it that's the wheels in motion to the inevitable.

I kind of ordered mine on impulse. I was just checking to make sure my source still had it and I didn't see it at first. Once I finally found it, I was so relieved that I ordered it before I thought to stop myself.

 

[BadDragon621]

My SN has been shipped. I'm equally afraid that I will use and that I won't use it. I've been to residential treatment recently as well as inpatient. I've been in weekly therapy for years. I was supposed to call my therapist before I ordered, and I know she'd want me to call now that it'll get here in a few days. I don't think I will, but I did want to tell someone. So I'm posting here.

Did your therapist support your plans or what?

 

[lebrodude]

Hey, I am in the same status quo. I ordered SN before and the ordering process hung up. Now I'm about to order again and I don't dare - but for fear that the delivery might be discovered by customs... Yes, and of course I'm also afraid to go through with it then.

Yeah the customs thing is a worry but where I am other people on here seem to be getting it no problems.

I kind of ordered mine on impulse. I was just checking to make sure my source still had it and I didn't see it at first. Once I finally found it, I was so relieved that I ordered it before I thought to stop myself.

I need to bite the bullet so to speak and order it, my biggest fear is this last easily accessible source is lost and I can't then get it.

At least if I have it stored away somewhere I'll have it for when I feel it's time to go.

 

[SenseOfLoss]

Yeah the customs thing is a worry but where I am other people on here seem to be getting it no problems.



I need to bite the bullet so to speak and order it, my biggest fear is this last easily accessible source is lost and I can't then get it.

At least if I have it stored away somewhere I'll have it for when I feel it's time to go.

Yes, you rarely hear that there were problems, but with my luck... And in my country, the placing on the market of SN is not allowed if you do not have the appropriate license.
And that's how I feel, maybe soon there will be no source... Besides, I also have no time left....