Help I only have like 15g of SN left..what should I take in consideration when ctb

[Lonerzepam]

So as I said I only have like 15g SN left. I got it from IC but with their new restrictions I don't really wanna order again. So my question is what can I possible do to not fail this. I don't have meto. I have lots of benzos. I have painkillers. I read that some people threw up even with meto and some didn't without. But yeah my chances would probably be higher with meto. I was also thinking of smoking some CBD weed before for anxiety and as an alternative antiemtic.
So my current plan would be pop benzos/painkiller 1 hour before 15g sn drink with no meto or backup glass meantime smoke 1 or 2 big CBD Joints drink 15g sn drink and pray I don't throw up. I think the CBD will really help with that cuz it really helps me with some stomach issues. I know this isn't and Ideal plan. But those are all the resources I have. 15g is still fatal I know. But judging from my circumstences and options can I improve anything for a higher success rate? Maybe make 2 glasses with only 7g as backup glass. Or leave it with the one 15g glass. Can someone help me out with this please I'm scared I fuck it up and no longer have the option of SN. Thanks guys

 

[lemonhoney]

I ordered via IC without any problems. Even with the restrictions.

 

[Lonerzepam]

I ordered via IC without any problems. Even with the restrictions.

Well that's a bit comforting at least. But I'm from Europe and live with my parents they go through my mail it wouldn't be that easy for me to get sn again.
It's probably not too bad of a plan considering my resources right? But what about the backup glass. Should I go with 1 15g glass or 2x 7g glasses?

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think the 'recommended' dose depends on your weight. I did see a table indicating weights and recommended amounts in some threads. Hopefully someone with more knowledge will be able to advise.

I just don't know enough- I'm sorry. Speaking personally, I would try and get more but I am an excessive worrier. I wish you all the best- whatever you decide.

 

[hush hush]

So as I said I only have like 15g SN left. I got it from IC but with their new restrictions I don't really wanna order again. So my question is what can I possible do to not fail this. I don't have meto. I have lots of benzos. I have painkillers. I read that some people threw up even with meto and some didn't without. But yeah my chances would probably be higher with meto. I was also thinking of smoking some CBD weed before for anxiety and as an alternative antiemtic.
So my current plan would be pop benzos/painkiller 1 hour before 15g sn drink with no meto or backup glass meantime smoke 1 or 2 big CBD Joints drink 15g sn drink and pray I don't throw up. I think the CBD will really help with that cuz it really helps me with some stomach issues. I know this isn't and Ideal plan. But those are all the resources I have. 15g is still fatal I know. But judging from my circumstences and options can I improve anything for a higher success rate? Maybe make 2 glasses with only 7g as backup glass. Or leave it with the one 15g glass. Can someone help me out with this please I'm scared I fuck it up and no longer have the option of SN. Thanks guys

It's not safe to try CBT with 15 gr of SN, especially without meto. A second and even a third glass is mandatory. Personally, I would not try without access to 100 grams at least. I hope you are older than 21 so that you can order from IC and feel less trapped.

 

[Lonerzepam]

It's not safe to try CBT with 15 gr of SN, especially without meto. A second and even a third glass is mandatory. Personally, I would not try without access to 100 grams at least. I hope you are older than 21 so that you can order from IC and feel less trapped.

Yes I just turned 22. But why is it not safe exactly. Even if I throw up there's a chance for it to work right

 

[hush hush]

Yes I just turned 22. But why is it not safe exactly. Even if I throw up there's a chance for it to work right

It's way too risky, do 't make hasted decisions. Order more, CTB is the most important decision in your life. Try to get it done right if this is what you want. Take a break, reflect, make a decision and take the appropriate action.
The European Court of Human Rights has decided it is our right to CTB under its jurisdiction

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...lf-against-involuntary-hospitalization.90919/

 

[Someone123]

Meclizine is an over the counter antiemitic that you can order online without restictions that some people here hav successfully used to ctb.

 

[Lonerzepam]

It's way too risky, do 't make hasted decisions. Order more, CTB is the most important decision in your life. Try to get it done right if this is what you want. Take a break, reflect, make a decision and take the appropriate action.
The European Court of Human Rights has decided it is our right to CTB under its jurisdiction

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...lf-against-involuntary-hospitalization.90919/

Ok thanks bro you're right

 

[Maudlin]

Yes I just turned 22. But why is it not safe exactly. Even if I throw up there's a chance for it to work right

I hope you don't mind me asking, but at 22, what's the rush?

 

[Lonerzepam]

I hope you don't mind me asking, but at 22, what's the rush?

Heavy neurological disorder (HPPD) due to medication (SSRIs, Antipsychotics) and recreational drug use. Everyday is just torture bro..But as of now I'm trying the recovery path

 

[Maudlin]

Heavy neurological disorder (HPPD) due to medication (SSRIs, Antipsychotics) and recreational drug use. Everyday is just torture bro..But as of now I'm trying the recovery path

I did a lot of LSD in high school. It took around 7-8 years for the flashbacks to go away, mostly. They did go away, though. You might look up some of the more recent whitepapers on SSRIs, you'll find studies showing nothing but lies, and damage.

I never allowed anyone to get me taking them.

I don't know much about antipsychotics, I've only taken them a time or two my entire life... first to see what the "thorazine shuffle" was all about (I was curious) and a couple times to sleep, or "come down".

My impression is that antipsychotics exist to make money for Big Pharma (like SSRIs), and make the "babysitters" jobs easier. Your mileage may vary, with that one.

I've never had any faith in Psychiatry, or Psychology. Occasionally I would go see a therapist for a time or two, just to keep tabs on what society sells as "normal behavior". I'm grateful I never let them drug me into a trainwreck. It seems every one has their own pet diagnosis now days, so many get pills for it, whatever it is... but so few get a check. That tells me something.

If the flashbacks are particularly intense (mine were, for about a year or two) just give it time, bro- It will ease, it just seems to take forever. A good diet, exercise, and staying busy (if not always entirely "productive") worked wonders, for me. The recovery path is a good one, if you can walk it. The other path is always in arms' reach.

Take your time, bro- ;)

 

[👁️👃👁️]

I'm not saying to risk it but if you look at the original ppeh guide for SN it was somewhere around 5-10 grams I believe and then they gradually moved up the weight.

 

[Lonerzepam]

I did a lot of LSD in high school. It took around 7-8 years for the flashbacks to go away, mostly. They did go away, though. You might look up some of the more recent whitepapers on SSRIs, you'll find studies showing nothing but lies, and damage.

I never allowed anyone to get me taking them.

I don't know much about antipsychotics, I've only taken them a time or two my entire life... first to see what the "thorazine shuffle" was all about (I was curious) and a couple times to sleep, or "come down".

My impression is that antipsychotics exist to make money for Big Pharma (like SSRIs), and make the "babysitters" jobs easier. Your mileage may vary, with that one.

I've never had any faith in Psychiatry, or Psychology. Occasionally I would go see a therapist for a time or two, just to keep tabs on what society sells as "normal behavior". I'm grateful I never let them drug me into a trainwreck. It seems every one has their own pet diagnosis now days, so many get pills for it, whatever it is... but so few get a check. That tells me something.

If the flashbacks are particularly intense (mine were, for about a year or two) just give it time, bro- It will ease, it just seems to take forever. A good diet, exercise, and staying busy (if not always entirely "productive") worked wonders, for me. The recovery path is a good one, if you can walk it. The other path is always in arms' reach.

Take your time, bro- ;)

Yeah bro I try. I try very hard. I'm too tired to explain anymore right now. I'm gonna go take a nap. But if ur interested in what happened and how I got to this point I made a story thread about it. It's really fucked up. I'll leave the link here just in case.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/why-tf-am-i-still-here.102360/

I'm not saying to risk it but if you look at the original ppeh guide for SN it was somewhere around 5-10 grams I believe and then they gradually moved up the weight.

Glad to see you're still around thought u were already gone

 

[Maudlin]

Yeah bro I try. I try very hard. I'm too tired to explain anymore right now. I'm gonna go take a nap. But if ur interested in what happened and how I got to this point I made a story thread about it. It's really fucked up. I'll leave the link here just in case.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/why-tf-am-i-still-here.102360/

I'll read it.

 

[Jadzia]

I wouldn't risk it. I've got 150g so I've got plenty of back ups in case I throw up.

 

[S like suicide]

I did a lot of LSD in high school. It took around 7-8 years for the flashbacks to go away, mostly. They did go away, though. You might look up some of the more recent whitepapers on SSRIs, you'll find studies showing nothing but lies, and damage.

I never allowed anyone to get me taking them.

I don't know much about antipsychotics, I've only taken them a time or two my entire life... first to see what the "thorazine shuffle" was all about (I was curious) and a couple times to sleep, or "come down".

My impression is that antipsychotics exist to make money for Big Pharma (like SSRIs), and make the "babysitters" jobs easier. Your mileage may vary, with that one.

I've never had any faith in Psychiatry, or Psychology. Occasionally I would go see a therapist for a time or two, just to keep tabs on what society sells as "normal behavior". I'm grateful I never let them drug me into a trainwreck. It seems every one has their own pet diagnosis now days, so many get pills for it, whatever it is... but so few get a check. That tells me something.

If the flashbacks are particularly intense (mine were, for about a year or two) just give it time, bro- It will ease, it just seems to take forever. A good diet, exercise, and staying busy (if not always entirely "productive") worked wonders, for me. The recovery path is a good one, if you can walk it. The other path is always in arms' reach.

Take your time, bro- ;)

i totally agree on psy drugs and psy world fuck it

 

[Maudlin]

i totally agree on psy drugs and psy world fuck it

Not only is it non-science, it's nonsense. lol

 

[S like suicide]

Not only is it non-science, it's nonsense. lol

Yeah...we are only cavies for them