I often only smile if im on this forum (venting or some)

[spectraltease]

I no longer have any motivation to live. Actually, I wanted to kill myself this January, but important people hold me in my life. I should be dead in 2 weeks but I can't do it but I want it so much. I don't enjoy anything anymore, everything just annoys me or is so energy-consuming. My life never gets better and I would rather kill myself than get better. I just don't want to exist anymore. Every day is boring, I hate almost all people and myself. I can't smile and if I'm happy for a second, the joy is gone again in the next second, but it's really like that. I feel so empty and my heart is broken. It feels like weight is on my chest and my chest get crushed by this weight. But I like being here and I feel comfortable here, arround the other ppl. Often I smile when im reading the heart warming texts of other users. Thank you for this.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm pleased for you that you have something that offers some kind of relief. But your wish to leave this world and your frustrations towards existing really are understandable. I've never wanted anything to do with something as useless and undesirable as existing and could never do no matter what happens. The thought of being permanently free from this world is the only thing that's appealing to me, in fact I view non existence as being perfection.

 

[almostoutofhere]

I've only been in a better mood lately because my sn is on the way and I know it's going to be over soon. Placing the order actually put a smile on my face