Venting I officially give up.

[justwant2sleep]

So I tried to give this life one last try. I failed miserably. How stupid was I to think I could ever successfully live in this hell? I cannot cope. I'm worried I won't be able to find a SN source where I live. Either that or I will have to find somewhere for hanging soon. It's all too much. I just need to fall asleep and never wake up. I feel like I am already dead but my body is lagging behind. I hadn't left my house for weeks until I was forced to go to a family gathering. My god it was hell. I do not have it in me to talk about the weather or how soft my jumper is or the score in the sporting game. I cannot even fake a smile or interest in small talk anymore. I'm way too exhausted but they all think I'm just being rude. Please please someone help me I just want to leave

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that it really can be so dreadful feeling trapped here, I hope you eventually find the freedom you search for, I certainly wish that suicide is as straightforward as just choosing to never wake.

 

[cheese.out]

Sorry life was harsh to you. I hope you find the peace and love you so deserve ❤

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry what you have to endure is so awful. Life is so exhausting and cruel sometimes. Nobody should suffer like this. I hope you find peace.

 

[CTB Dream]

V sry this life v awfl all sffr all pain v hard ctb, v undrstnd want escp want sleep no wake

 

[justwant2sleep]

I understand that it really can be so dreadful feeling trapped here, I hope you eventually find the freedom you search for, I certainly wish that suicide is as straightforward as just choosing to never wake.

It really is dreadful. Thank you - I hope I find that freedom soon too, because I am running out of patience. Oh my god if only it was as simple as choosing to not wake up. I would've been gone many years ago lol

Sorry life was harsh to you. I hope you find the peace and love you so deserve ❤

Thank you! I'm not sure I deserve love, but some peace would be great

I'm sorry what you have to endure is so awful. Life is so exhausting and cruel sometimes. Nobody should suffer like this. I hope you find peace.

Life has been exhausting and cruel for many years now, I agree that nobody should suffer like many of us here are. Thank you for the well wishes, I appreciate it