Venting I need a way

[urgent]

I wish there was a way I could have someone get something for me I'm truly suffering the pain is unbearable, excruciating, why do they make it a crime to help someone, why did they make N impossible to get, I don't deserve to suffer like this it's inhumane

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, it's just so horrific to me how we exist in this world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it truly is such terrible extreme cruelty to me how humans have made dying peacefully illegal, I also suffer so unbearably how I cannot just access Nembutal, I hope you find freedom from suffering.

 

[urgent]

I really understand, it's just so horrific to me how we exist in this world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it truly is such terrible extreme cruelty to me how humans have made dying peacefully illegal, I also suffer so unbearably how I cannot just access Nembutal, I hope you find freedom from suffering.

Thank you for your kindness. I know you understand. Why can't someone have compassion and show us mercy. It is so cruel. I'm shaking in pain. I can't even control my body temperature. It hurts to breathe, eat, drink. It should be illegal. There are so many people who knew to prepare and stocked up on Nembutal. So many who won't even use it. So many who could get the MAiD script who aren't going to use it, whose pain is managed. How can I find mercy? Is there really no way to end this brutal suffering? Why is my broken body able to go on like this? When will it stop? How horrible to have to exist in such unbearable suffering for so long without the right to simply ask for a medication. All these years of long brutal days of pain watching others who can live and breathe, walk, eat, laugh from my blurry visioned sore eyes. How I miss living.