I lost a lot of money on gambling today. I want to kill myself

[Anon7075]

The title says it all pretty much. The universe makes fun of me. I was supposed to win big today but lost a ton because of really bad luck. Fuck gambling and fuck the state that makes money off of it and giving everything to the private pockets of corrupt politicians. Feel like ending everything because i have a 100 reasons to kill myself. Now there's 101. Fuck my life and fuck this universe that makes fun of me. My entire life i had my labor and money stolen, my wages garnished. Fuck everything. I want to fucking end it all.

 

[Yister]

how much money did you lose?

 

[Anon7075]

how much money did you lose?

Too much. Just too much.

 

[steppenwolf]

At least you didn't lose the money for the little girl's life-saving cancer surgery in the US, or for that porcelain figurine your great-great-great grandfather had specially made for your great-great-great grandmother that has been in the family for generations that you pawned

 

[Ligottian]

Should have bet on the Eagles in the Super Bowl.

 

[RinneOfAragon]

Im so sorry that you lost loads of your hard earned money. Gambling in itself is also a mental health problem/addiction. Even if you didn't lose today you would certainly lose tomorrow. The house always wins. There may be people that can help with this. I know you said that you have 100 other problems so I'm not discounting all of that but I think there is a bit more support now for gambling addiction. Gambling is very addictive as it does trigger a reward system in the brain. It's not an easy fix at all. I'm sending my best wishes to you.

 

[MountainMonkey]

I love when ppl try to convince me that losing money is not a reason CTB. Fucking idiots must not realize that it is absolutely a reason to CTB. Unless the apocalypse occurs and capitalism dies.

 

[whywere]

My heart breaks for you, it REALLY does.

You are a strong soul and like @Corvette90 said so eloquently about a support group. My ex had a HUGE gambling addiction, and she would NOT get help, so darn sad.

I send you lots of hugs, love and the knowledge that we are ALL in this together and maybe a support group on the horizon?

Walter

 

[outrider567]

Just walk away from it--I did

 

[Anon7075]

I lost the money and i accept that. I had a 40-ish hour long panic/anxious attack and i tried to hang myself. But today i feel better. Im anxious af but im okay. I'll try to get my losses back without gambling. I'll find a part time job or something. But im okay. Im okay. Im fine. Thank you for giving me support about my stupid impulsive decision. My bio-psychiatrist said that my brain tumor induces impulsive attacks. Thankfully i will have it removed this week so that stupid bullshit like this doesn't happen again.

Edit: my neck and back hurt but thankfully i didn't fuck it all up by killing myself over stupid pieces of paper.

Edit edit: Also fuck capitalism, alcohol and gambling. They are the opium of the working class.