i live in the US and i want to CTB badly, however i do not know what method to use/what method will be easier/what would be the least painful.

[theneverending]

i do not have access to firearms, nor can i afford any even if i did have access to them. i am prescribed antidepressant medication (escitalopram, 20mg) although i was told that is a painful and unreliable method. i have access to ropes however recently i have heard that hanging is extremely painful and relatively slow. i have the ingredients i would need to synthesize sodium nitrite myself, however i am not sure if i would be able to make it successfully, and i wouldnt know how to test if it was well made or not. i do not know how/where to buy SN either. i also have plenty of sharp objects however i read that it is painful and unreliable. i was also told that over the counter medications were also unreliable. everything i can think of is either extremely painful or extremely unreliable. i genuinely do not know what i can do and every waking moment of this life is hell. i would appreciate any advice that can be given.

 

[LastDayOnEarth]

I don't have a method myself yet, I'm looking into jumping, I'm doing research of some good spots within my area, if not then I'll see if I can get my hands on SN and see

 

[MeSauce]

Hanging isn't that painful if you do it right, or so i've heard

 

[theneverending]

I don't have a method myself yet, I'm looking into jumping, I'm doing research of some good spots within my area, if not then I'll see if I can get my hands on SN and see

i would try jumping if i could, i live near a major US city (not gonna say which, for my own safety) so i could technically use a building there, however 1. it is a very big city, with lots of police, so i could risk being rescued prior or during the jump, which would make everything far worse, and 2. i would prefer not to traumatize a bunch of innocent civilians, as there are often a lot of children in the city as well, and even though i would die in the end so it should not matter to me. although i would still not want children to be traumatized. also excuse my poor grammar, english isnt my first language, and im too mentally distressed right now to be able to focus intently on using proper grammar and spelling.

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I'm going for inert gas. It's quick and painless. Sourcing my tank from a nearby welding shop was easy. It can be pricey but it's well worth it.

 

[theneverending]

I'm going for inert gas. It's quick and painless. Sourcing my tank from a nearby welding shop was easy. It can be pricey but it's well worth it.

is there a specific gas that works best for that? and how would i go about it without any of my family members finding my body. i want to minimize pain to those who love me as much as i can. so i would prefer that only police or EMS found my body.

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

is there a specific gas that works best for that? and how would i go about it without any of my family members finding my body. i want to minimize pain to those who love me as much as i can. so i would prefer that only police or EMS found my body.

Well, Nitrogen is the easiest to source. I think with this method though, your family members would find your body first. You can't really take it outside with you, like you could with SN. with SN you could be found in a park by other people.

 

[theneverending]

Well, Nitrogen is the easiest to source. I think with this method though, your family members would find your body first. You can't really take it outside with you, like you could with SN. with SN you could be found in a park by other people.

i wonder if there would be any way to get the cops to show up after the death so that they can clean up my body without my family having to find it...

 

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[LastNite]

whats your budget?

 

[theneverending]

whats your budget?

in general im looking for something decently cheap. im currently in student debt and i work a part time job, i make a little over minimum wage, at a weekly salary of about 700 US dollars, however most of this i use just to pay my bills and have food to eat. so maybe a budget of 200-300 dollars would be a safe guess, if i tried and put in overtime i could pay a little more than that. but im also not willing to pay a huge amount of money for something that likely wont work. i have enough money for firearms, the only issue is i live in a state that has stricter gun laws, and i wont be able to buy a handgun because im under 21 years old. plus, the background checks and wait period would be a lot to put up with.

 

[LastNite]

in general im looking for something decently cheap. im currently in student debt and i work a part time job, i make a little over minimum wage, at a weekly salary of about 700 US dollars, however most of this i use just to pay my bills and have food to eat. so maybe a budget of 200-300 dollars would be a safe guess, if i tried and put in overtime i could pay a little more than that. but im also not willing to pay a huge amount of money for something that likely wont work. i have enough money for firearms, the only issue is i live in a state that has stricter gun laws, and i wont be able to buy a handgun because im under 21 years old. plus, the background checks and wait period would be a lot to put up with.

you only need 55 bucks maximum. Im doing it with fentanyl dont know exactly when but I got a vendor who ships domestically. USA > USA and I live in the U.S. I managed to save up about $40 bucks now I got $53 in XMR right now but it keeps rising and going down. He has 3 shipping options:

0.5g of Fentanyl : $40

priority mail : $15

Ground Advantage: $12

Same day shipping : $50


It arrives in multiple layers so stealth is pretty good with him. He has a 5/5 rating. Many good reviews including good support/good reship options.

Fentanyl is an opioid drug that is extremely strong and potent. In high purity fentanyl as low as 1mg can cause a fatal overdose. Fentanyl is also a pretty good painkiller. You'll feel nothing when it comes down to the OD. They use it at hospitals at very micro doses (30-50mcg) to help people with their pain.

I haven't ordered it yet but I did try ended up canceling it because I was worried parents would find out not sure how but Im going to try to convince them to stop opening my packages by ordering random stuff for like 5 bucks from amazon until I know they'll not open it. They dont give two shits about privacy. I did want to order it to USPS store with general delivery but that is way way far away like 6 hours.

 

[theneverending]

you only need 55 bucks maximum. Im doing it with fentanyl dont know exactly when but I got a vendor who ships domestically. USA > USA and I live in the U.S. I managed to save up about $40 bucks now I got $53 in XMR right now but it keeps rising and going down. He has 3 shipping options:

0.5g of Fentanyl : $40

priority mail : $15

Ground Advantage: $12

Same day shipping : $50


It arrives in multiple layers so stealth is pretty good with him. He has a 5/5 rating. Many good reviews including good support/good reship options.

Fentanyl is an opioid drug that is extremely strong and potent. In high purity fentanyl as low as 1mg can cause a fatal overdose. Fentanyl is also a pretty good painkiller. You'll feel nothing when it comes down to the OD. They use it at hospitals at very micro doses (30-50mcg) to help people with their pain.

I haven't ordered it yet but I did try ended up canceling it because I was worried parents would find out not sure how but Im going to try to convince them to stop opening my packages by ordering random stuff for like 5 bucks from amazon until I know they'll not open it. They dont give two shits about privacy. I did want to order it to USPS store with general delivery but that is way way far away like 6 hours.

i had just written out a whole paragraph about how "0.5 mg isn't enough fentanyl to be lethal for sure" and then i reread it and realized you said 0.5 grams instead of mg. if it is truly that cheap and is truly real fentanyl, $40 is astronomically cheap. i can look into it when i have the time, thank you for the suggestion.

 

[LastNite]

i had just written out a whole paragraph about how "0.5 mg isn't enough fentanyl to be lethal for sure" and then i reread it and realized you said 0.5 grams instead of mg. if it is truly that cheap and is truly real fentanyl, $40 is astronomically cheap. i can look into it when i have the time, thank you for the suggestion.

Despite the misunderstanding you're still actually wrong lol 5mg is extremely lethal in opiate naive users. I also looked up some prices for street fent it apparently goes for like 50 to 60 a gram. Maybe it's worse purity but it's still cheap.

They probably sell it so cheap because fentanyl addicts will always chase the high so it's a consistent business. Quitting fent addiction is like trying to stop eating for a whole month.

 

[wham311]

Despite the misunderstanding you're still actually wrong lol 5mg is extremely lethal in opiate naive users. I also looked up some prices for street fent it apparently goes for like 50 to 60 a gram. Maybe it's worse purity but it's still cheap.

They probably sell it so cheap because fentanyl addicts will always chase the high so it's a consistent business. Quitting fent addiction is like trying to stop eating for a whole month.

Hook up a source pls

 

[LastNite]

Hook up a source pls

you sent me a PM I responded check it lol

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand finding it so torturous to exist, I also just wish to be gone and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace to escape from the suffering of existing, all I wish for is a painless guaranteed death with no more pain and no more suffering, I hope that you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[theneverending]

Despite the misunderstanding you're still actually wrong lol 5mg is extremely lethal in opiate naive users. I also looked up some prices for street fent it apparently goes for like 50 to 60 a gram. Maybe it's worse purity but it's still cheap.

They probably sell it so cheap because fentanyl addicts will always chase the high so it's a consistent business. Quitting fent addiction is like trying to stop eating for a whole month.

yeah i know 5 mg is enough to kill someone, i meant 0.5 mg. which can technically still kill but is unlikely

 

[LastNite]

yeah i know 5 mg is enough to kill someone, i meant 0.5 mg. which can technically still kill but is unlikely

I assume you mean mcg? 5 or 50 mcg is safe dose used in the medical field. 5 milligrams (mg) isn't a dose used by anyone other than high tolerant opioid users.
Someone with no tolerance can't take a dose like that.

 

[theneverending]

I assume you mean mcg? 5 or 50 mcg is safe dose used in the medical field. 5 milligrams (mg) isn't a dose used by anyone other than high tolerant opioid users.
Someone with no tolerance can't take a dose like that.

no i meant milligram, 0.5 milligrams is 500 mcg.