I live in a house of 8 people. As well as in a town with a lot of people.

[Live and Let Die]

Like the title reads, I live in a house of 8 (not including me), and the town I live in has people walking down streets, trails, paths, etc, all the time. What should I do, and where, so I don't get stopped. I've looked into hanging, but there's nothing to hang from in my room and I'm too tall for the water heater room. SN looked perfect until I realized its only sold for commercial/food product use. Carbon Monoxide looks great, but again with a house of 8, someone will come out to see why a car has been idling for that long. I'm stuck, and need help. Please.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

You can't do CO with a car, anymore, anyway. Newer cars have catalytic converters.

 

[Unwr!tten]

I'm sorry you're in so much pain. So partial is out? I wish I could help you in any way, whether that's just talking or advice. I'm here if you need to talk.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you are trapped in such a horrible situation with seemingly no way out. This is so tiring. Have you considered the CO method in a tent? You could go out of town into nature?

 

[TheHuman]

I have a few recommendations for you on ways to ctb.

1. Jumping. Its basic, but if you have a tall enough building in your town then you maybe instakill yourself so that when you get seen you can't be "saved"

2. SN. You said yourself its only sold for commercial use, maybe commit some mild fraud (its surprisingly easy) write a bad check, then you could get your hands on some SN. I'm not going to say how to do it here but there are some good resources on the dark web for that kinda thing. Or you could maybe find a dealer instead of committing mild fraud, but that's your choice.

3. Get Hit. If you have a train station, a busy intersection, or anything like that there is a possibility that it will work. However this is riskiest option of them all since there could be a "hero" or you survive and get sent to the psych ward.

That's what I could come up with off the top of my head, so I hope one these will work for you, and if they do I wish you the best.