Discussion I know we aren't supposed to test ingest SN... but I just dissolved 3g :D

[Chemi]

I know we aren't supposed to test ingest SN, but I'm gonna test ingest SN quickly haha :D
I just can't resist. I ate lots at dinner earlier and didn't take any of the recommended meds.
Been staring at my SN for almost 2 hours now. I am so incredibly tempted.
I'm not even sad at the moment. I actually feel kinda good.

Realistically, I don't think imma CTB, but if it happens, that's alright.
I'm prepared and happy to go.

So I just dissolved 3g.
It's really not even that cloudy even after I mixed it up even more post taking pictures. Doesn't smell like anything either. Idk what I expected. Kinda disappointed.

Anyway, cheers!
See y'all later... or not :D

PLEASE DON'T DO IT YOURSELF UNLESS YOURE 100% READY TO DIE - forgot to add that. Thanks @NearlyIrrelevantCake

PSA - DO NOT test-ingest SN

As users are aware, this platform advocates for personal bodily autonomy and supports individuals' rational choices regarding how they wish to live or die. However, there have been recent posts from users who have been "testing" their sodium nitrite (SN) supply—not for the purpose of an actual...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

For anyone else reading DO NOT TEST SMALL AMOUNTS OF SN LIKE THIS UNLESS YOU ARE 100% READY TO DIE AT THAT TIME. People have died from TINY amounts of SN.

PSA - DO NOT test-ingest SN

As users are aware, this platform advocates for personal bodily autonomy and supports individuals' rational choices regarding how they wish to live or die. However, there have been recent posts from users who have been "testing" their sodium nitrite (SN) supply—not for the purpose of an actual...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[Chemi]

A couple of minutes after I drank it, now.
It's disgusting. Y'all drink 25grams of that? Eww

My head is thumping, I feel my heart beating all the way up my neck, a bit dizzy when I move my head too fast, and my eyes are feeling heavy. I might just be getting tired, though.

 

[Bimbosqualo]

I know we aren't supposed to test ingest SN, but I'm gonna test ingest SN quickly haha :D
I just can't resist. I ate lots at dinner earlier and didn't take any of the recommended meds.
Been staring at my SN for almost 2 hours now. I am so incredibly tempted.
I'm not even sad at the moment. I actually feel kinda good.

Realistically, I don't think imma CTB, but if it happens, that's alright.
I'm prepared and happy to go.

So I just dissolved 3g.
It's really not even that cloudy even after I mixed it up even more post taking pictures. Doesn't smell like anything either. Idk what I expected. Kinda disappointed.

Anyway, cheers!
See y'all later... or not :D

PLEASE DON'T DO IT YOURSELF UNLESS YOURE 100% READY TO DIE - forgot to add that. Thanks @NearlyIrrelevantCake

PSA - DO NOT test-ingest SN

As users are aware, this platform advocates for personal bodily autonomy and supports individuals' rational choices regarding how they wish to live or die. However, there have been recent posts from users who have been "testing" their sodium nitrite (SN) supply—not for the purpose of an actual...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Did you drink it? How do you feel now?

 

[Chemi]

Lying down for a bit. Left ear is ringing now. No nausea so far, surprisingly

 

[Bimbosqualo]

Don't risk it, even just 3 grams can be lethal, ask for help or try to vomit it.

 

[Chemi]

Quite out of breath now 15 minutes in but this really ain't that bad. Putting phone away now. Vision bit blurry

 

[Bimbosqualo]

Whatever decision you make, I wish you the best

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

Hello. This is your choice and you said that you are happy to go but if you find you regret this choice and wish to do something besides calling an ambulance, I'd drink water 500 ML's and puke, drink water again and puke again, then drink water one last time and NOT puke. If you hydrate yourself enough/expell fast enough it should help, remember that you CAN die but without fasting and already having drunk water/eaten prior, it will most likely mess you up physically rather than killing you. Fasting is required for a reason.

I wish you the best

 

[SleepyBB]

Rest in peace if you don't return. This is a really bad idea and I would call paramedics if I were you, but then again I'm not and I don't know your story. I'm sorry you've felt that this was it for you. If you don't want to die please call a medic. Even just one gram is enough. This could take hourssss to kill you. Please take care and if this is the end for you, I wish you the best on your crossing.

 

[ilovenewyork]

Suggest calling the paramedics, quickly.

 

[ummagumma]

shit, thats bad
last year i ingested 2 g and ended up in intensive care, almost died
if you are not sure about suicide, please, call the paramedics
you have put your phone away, so you wont see this, but i wish you the best. im praying for the best outcome, no matter what it is for you

 

[INYGTRMTFMO]

If you do see this, wishing you peace and healing.

 

[Hermitcrab]

Whichever way it ends up turning out for you, I wish you the best!

 

[Dr.Duck]

I'm glad I got to interact with you a bit before this, you were very nice. Hope however it turns out you are happy with the decision.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

I'm in no position to judge your motivations, but please be VERY careful with SN in low dosages! It's deadly, but not in the relatively comfortable way it should be when taking recommended doses. I tried it myself and recently someone else in SaSu did as well, it's NOT a good experience and it's NOT worth the risk for a suicidal gesture or a trial run. If you want to die, that's your right, but a low dose of SN isn't a good way to go.

Remember, we're here for you no matter what you choose, but call for help immediately in case you want to abort and ask for METHYLENE BLUE.

 

[rs929]

This looks like a suicidal gesture and not an actual CTB attempt. Hope you were able to call for medical assistance. Watching the thread hoping to hear back from you

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

from my memory @sadworld 3 grams and gone . Sn is powerful

 

[Chemi]

Im okay. More later. Need rest

 

[Forveleth]

Im okay. More later. Need rest

Whew! Glad you are ok. Get some rest.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

Im okay. More later. Need rest

Vomit as much as you need, be aware of your heart rate, and don't hesitate to ask for help either here or IRL if you feel you need it

 

[Dante_]

Chemi, Please get checked up on as soon as possible, this is a situation of the kind of severity that needs medical attention even if you are fine, please.

 

[Chemi]

UPDATE:
Alright, I intended to write a detailed report, however I made a rather stupid, big mistake which led to unwanted visitors knocking on my door in the middle of the night.
I will postpone the report indefinitely until I have more time and a clearer mind to really think about what i can write without compromising my privacy even further. Not sure yet how I want to proceed. I am very sorry.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Please take care of yourself.

You don't owe us anything; recover, integrate. At your own pace.

 

[Chemi]

NOT a good experience and it's NOT worth the risk for a suicidal gesture or a trial run. If you want to die, that's your right, but a low dose of SN isn't a good way to go.

You are right. Wasn't fun and don't think it would have worked. I did abort and purge

This looks like a suicidal gesture and not an actual CTB attempt

No, i would have followed the proper regime and doses if it were a CTB attempt.

Just got a little to curious and impulsive. Definitely don't recommend low doses, especially w/o benzos

 

[rs929]

You are right. Wasn't fun and don't think it would have worked. I did abort and purge


No, i would have followed the proper regime and doses if it were a CTB attempt.

Just got a little to curious and impulsive. Definitely don't recommend low doses, especially w/o benzos

How are you feeling now?