i knew that crazy people existed. but what i just experienced has me fucking shocked

[xXSufferingXx]

we all know that crazy people exist in the world. this is common knowledge.
but i had an online friend who i deemed very normal.
we had been chatting for months.
i felt like i knew this dude kinda well.

then today... idk what kinda fucking explosion he had inside his brain... but he was
telling me all these bizarre, psychotic, totally fucked up claims about him being a billionaire, but he can't tell anyone due to blah blah blah.

if that was his only claim, then it could be true, sure.

but that wasn't all.
he made several additional claims about other crazy stuff.
real wacky shit.
like "my grandfather is who came up with the idea for donald duck" and shit hahahahahah!

i was like "how the fuck do i even reply to this guy in a nice way?"

but it fucked scared me, man.
how he seemed totally normal for maybe 8 months and then goes crazy.

it's not exactly something that helps my view of this world.

and it sure doesn't help one's (hypothetical) suicidal thoughts.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Psychosis is sad. I've been there myself.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

Psychosis is sad. I've been there myself.

absolutely. i'm big time freaked out, and i feel sorry for him if that's also what's going on with him.
which it probably is.
can i ask how yours came about?
like, what was the reason for yours?
only if you wanna share it

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

absolutely. i'm big time freaked out, and i feel sorry for him if that's also what's going on with him.
which it probably is.
can i ask how yours came about?
like, what was the reason for yours?
only if you wanna share it

A perfect storm of quitting weed, overusing benadryl, conspiracy theory, and religious conversion. Led to my bipolar diagnosis. Extremely manic. Thought I was battling demons...at work. I melted down and lost a good job. Terrible.

 

[Star67]

I had a psychotic episode from meds a few years ago and definitely had ideas of grandiosity. Was not fun to say the least

 

[Pluto]

 

[FoxSauce]

Well back in the hospital not long ago that he was telling a few spanish celebreties to get him out.

Im so sorry you had to experience that.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

A perfect storm of quitting weed, overusing benadryl, conspiracy theory, and religious conversion. Led to my bipolar diagnosis. Extremely manic. Thought I was battling demons...at work. I melted down and lost a good job. Terrible.

wow, man. sorry to hear

Well back in the hospital not long ago that he was telling a few spanish celebreties to get him out.

Im so sorry you had to experience that.

thanks, appreciate it. so you're saying you were in a hospital and someone in there claimed he or she knew spanish celebs to help the person escape the hospital?

 

[CatLvr]

What?!?!? No CAT?!?!? ARE YOU OKAY?!?!?

And to everyone who has suffered from a psychotic break my heart goes out to you -- one of my children is a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic. It is heartbreaking when he has an episode. I wish I could help him but he believes that I am the reason for all his problems in the world -- that if I would just die (and leave him all my money, of course) then he would be healed. I wish it were that easy.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

It is heartbreaking when he has an episode

sorry to hear, that's absolutely terrible. are his episodes similar to what i described inn my original post? or what?

 

[CatLvr]

sorry to hear, that's absolutely terrible. are his episodes similar to what i described inn my original post? or what?

Yes, very much so. He fluctuates back and forth from living a perfect life and his life is horrible because I am his mother. To be fair, he probably wouldn't have as much of a problem with me if I would enable his self-destructive behavior. I really hope that some day he realizes that he is not doing himself any favors with his behaviors/lifestyle/decisions but that saying about how you cannot help someone who doesn't want to help themselves is really true.

And thank you for your kind words. I am not actively suicidal now but I still check in here pretty frequently. I see so much pain in so many posts here -- much of it from young men and women who are younger than my own grandchildren -- and I feel compelled to at least try and lend a kind word. Or some encouragement. There is so much pain in the world. I hope I can take at least a little bit of that away for someone every once in a while.

 

[BradGuy123]

Oh gosh it sounds like this really came out of left field. To learn this about talking to him for so long must be shocking and disappointing. I'm sorry this happened to you.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

Oh gosh it sounds like this really came out of left field. To learn this about talking to him for so long must be shocking and disappointing. I'm sorry this happened to you.

definetely came out of nowhere, yep. thanks for your concern. you see and hear these things in movies.. sometimes you don't expect them to be THIS real lol

Yes, very much so. He fluctuates back and forth from living a perfect life and his life is horrible because I am his mother. To be fair, he probably wouldn't have as much of a problem with me if I would enable his self-destructive behavior. I really hope that some day he realizes that he is not doing himself any favors with his behaviors/lifestyle/decisions but that saying about how you cannot help someone who doesn't want to help themselves is really true.

And thank you for your kind words. I am not actively suicidal now but I still check in here pretty frequently. I see so much pain in so many posts here -- much of it from young men and women who are younger than my own grandchildren -- and I feel compelled to at least try and lend a kind word. Or some encouragement. There is so much pain in the world. I hope I can take at least a little bit of that away for someone every once in a while.

i see, wow. that's nice of you, you're definetely spreading positive and loving vibes. <3

 

[violetforever]

it's not exactly something that helps my view of this world.

and it sure doesn't help one's (hypothetical) suicidal thoughts.

seeing other people also suffering is one of the reasons im so suicidal. it hurts so much more than myself.

 

[madwoman]

Yeah this is one reason added to my long list for why I wanna ctb. I had a psychotic break down too with delusions of grandiose and holy moly I'm still shocked my brain did that and I'm forever traumatized from that and scared of it happening again. I'm glad I'm not alone though. But yeah severe mental illness is a thing or just breakdowns or drugs affecting you etc. the brain is wild. I am sorry this happened to you like I'm sorry for all I traumatized during my episode.

 

[ThatsAllFolks2218]

we all know that crazy people exist in the world. this is common knowledge.
but i had an online friend who i deemed very normal.
we had been chatting for months.
i felt like i knew this dude kinda well.

then today... idk what kinda fucking explosion he had inside his brain... but he was
telling me all these bizarre, psychotic, totally fucked up claims about him being a billionaire, but he can't tell anyone due to blah blah blah.

if that was his only claim, then it could be true, sure.

but that wasn't all.
he made several additional claims about other crazy stuff.
real wacky shit.
like "my grandfather is who came up with the idea for donald duck" and shit hahahahahah!

i was like "how the fuck do i even reply to this guy in a nice way?"

but it fucked scared me, man.
how he seemed totally normal for maybe 8 months and then goes crazy.

it's not exactly something that helps my view of this world.

and it sure doesn't help one's (hypothetical) suicidal thoughts.

I always feel bad for stuff like this. One way hand it's bizzare but on the other hand, the way that people can end up in life like that. I used to see it on the streets in a city I lived for 5 years. Same with people who take things like heroin right in front of you. It makes me wish they had a better life and care and love so they would'nt be trapped like that.