Story I kinda want someone to notice me.

[LastAcrobat]

I've been starting to be more semi-open about my intentions and problems. I cover everything in layers of humor and sarcasm so they don't get any deeper ideas, but people have noticed I've become increasingly reckless with my own safety (i.e. using the side of a parking garage as a balance beam "for fun" where if I fell to my left I'd almost certainty not survive). This is probably REALLY STUPID and may end up with someone catching on and sending me to a hospital again, but eh I was able to get out quickly last time using some careful half-truths. I kinda want someone to notice tho, maybe they will help me? Probably not tho.

If I'm really lucky I may get a CTB partner :D (unlikely, but I may have found one already?)

 

[Afterglow]

Try not to do anything to get paralyzed, that would be worse than death imo.

Hoping you get the attention you deserve <3

 

[Pluto]

 

[pelicanportal]

It is a cry for help. You need someone to care and help you. I hope someone does OP.

 

[myriapoda]

kinda have similar feelings. for me, it's because i don't want to be alone. i'm with the other commenter, be careful with accidentally slipping if you weren't planning to ctb so it doesn't cause unnecessary pain. goodluck with finding a partner to ctb with, it's quite hard to find people who have that level of understanding.

 

[spiders.in.my.head]

Ive been going down a similar path. anytime i do it though, i regret it pretty much immediately once i realize someone might tell on me. maybe im getting reckless and giving up, maybe its a last cry for help. who knows.

i wish you the best of luck! hoping you're able to find a good ctb partner!

 

[chaewon]

I've been starting to be more semi-open about my intentions and problems. I cover everything in layers of humor and sarcasm so they don't get any deeper ideas, but people have noticed I've become increasingly reckless with my own safety (i.e. using the side of a parking garage as a balance beam "for fun" where if I fell to my left I'd almost certainty not survive). This is probably REALLY STUPID and may end up with someone catching on and sending me to a hospital again, but eh I was able to get out quickly last time using some careful half-truths. I kinda want someone to notice tho, maybe they will help me? Probably not tho.

If I'm really lucky I may get a CTB partner :D (unlikely, but I may have found one already?)

Same I feel this lol for me its straight up talking about how good it would be if i die a natural death speeding as that wouldnt be a sin compared to suicide and I get to escape this shitty life (i mask it as a joke and no one really notices anything as far as ik but i have gotten uncomfortable/awkward laughs) But it just feels good for some reason lol