Venting I keep going to do it then stopping

[rlllyydepressed]

I keep going to the bridge to jump but not actually jumping I feel like I'm waiting for something or like someone to save me and magically make me feel better and it obviously never happens it's so frustrating because when I get back I regret not going through with it.

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

I keep going to the bridge to jump but not actually jumping I feel like I'm waiting for something or like someone to save me and magically make me feel better and it obviously never happens it's so frustrating because when I get back I regret not going through with it.

When I lived in a different state I would drive to the bottom of the bridge and just sit there sometimes. It's hard to actually go through with it.