Venting i just want to feel important to someone

[HowlingCoyote]

he moved recently, and he just got internet now at his new place, and he's more excited to talk to his friends than me. he said we'd sleep on the phone together. i got 3 hrs of sleep last night, ive staye dup all day for him, he knows this. but he'd rather spend all night with the m instead of me like he said.. i just want to feel important to anyone at all for once in my life whats even the point ive never felt loved the same way i love people. i wanna die so bad i just want the pain to be over. i cut his name into my skin again the other night, i felt so weak again, i hadnt cut in weeks. i failed again i keep failing ijust want him to love me like i love him

 

[Lamentice]

He's shown you his hand, now follow your own advice and take care of yourself.

 

[violetforever]

ijust want him to love me like i love him

they never love you when you put them above yourself. i thought they would too.

whats even the point ive never felt loved the same way i love people.

i love and hate this feeling. i love to know that i am capable of deeply caring for someone. i hate that it's been proved that nobody is capable of doing the same for me. oh well. i'll pretend being there for myself is enough because it has to be.