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Comatose11

Mage
Jul 26, 2018
572
I am ctb in early-mid January and it cannot come fast enough. Three weeks from now seems like forever away! I know it's not that long, but when you just want to die, it feels long.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
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Yeah, sometimes when death is near, time does slow down a lot and seems like 1 minute is suddenly like an hour, an hour is many hours, etc. I could recall there has been several times where I come to a critical point in which I'm close to death. Things really slow down and I guess it's my body and mind reacting to the possibililty of death coming.

I don't know, but maybe try to not over stress yourself during this time and do what you can to suppress your survival instinct so you aren't likely to back out at the last moment.
 
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Comatose11

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Jul 26, 2018
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Yeah, sometimes when death is near, time does slow down a lot and seems like 1 minute is suddenly like an hour, an hour is many hours, etc. I could recall there has been several times where I come to a critical point in which I'm close to death. Things really slow down and I guess it's my body and mind reacting to the possibililty of death coming.

I don't know, but maybe try to not over stress yourself during this time and do what you can to suppress your survival instinct so you aren't likely to back out at the last moment.

Good idea. I guess I'll just use this time to "tie up loose ends" so to speak.
 
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Dead_Inside

Dead_Inside

Wizard
Jul 2, 2018
622
I am ctb in early-mid January and it cannot come fast enough. Three weeks from now seems like forever away! I know it's not that long, but when you just want to die, it feels long.
Yep. I need to wait a few months more till I can buy a gun.
My first attempt was an OD... I used my Rx for propranolol (I have a heart arrhythmia) to do that- which required me to first wean myself off the medication (3 months -ish) and then save up the Rx.... more months....
So I understand the long wait...
 
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azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
Dead Inside, you're going to buy a gun?!?
 
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Lunaemoth

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Dec 14, 2018
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I understand... my CTB date is Jan 5th and it seems very, very far away. Especially since I have all the supplies already. But this time of year is hard on everyone, and, like many people on here, I don't want to ruin the holidays for my family.
 
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