Discussion I just miss being a little kid

[caliban]

I miss how I saw the world when I was little.

Everything was so colorful, I was so optimistic, wanting to explore the world. I eagerly wanted to understand how things work around me. I had the feeling that I can become anything if I want to. I was deeply attracted to the unknown and I took joy in everydays. I read a lot of books and tought so much about the characters and different worlds in them. I couldn't wait to grow up, move to another country and start my life, fulfilling my dreams. I spent hours fantasizing about life and the turns mine could take. I really tought that I will make it.

But all of this is gone now. Nothing turned out the way I tought it will. I couldn't find soulmates or love. Everything descended into a grey mess, where I cannot feel anything, just watch my life go by before my eyes, not doing anything but swifting away from reality without controll. I lost my will and can't feel love no more. I have to face my loneliness and failure everyday when i wake up. I think it's time for me to find ultimate peace.

 

[tiredash]

my life was shit as a kid... it wasnt the worst ever, but i dont want it again. if anything, i just want the feeling of not having responsibilities.. i might be 90% of the time doing nothing, but im always thinking i should be doing something productive, or cleaning or whatever, its a permanent guilt...

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Honestly, while my childhood wasn't bad, I would say that I'm currently in a better place mentally compared to back then. I feel like people tend to over-romanticize their childhoods in their head, too blinded by their own nostalgia to view those experiences the same way did back when they were younger. Sometimes I find myself blinded by my own nostalgia but then I take a minute to try and view my childhood as a whole and I remember that it wasn't anywhere near as good as I initially thought. My mom hitting me, getting yelled at all the time, getting stressed out all the time, all the negative experiences involving my ex-stepmother (e.g., witnessing her abusing my dad), being bored throughout most of the day because my mom would force me to stay in my room for "nap time" even after I made it clear that I was not tired and having to be quiet because if she found out that I was awake then that means her bringing out the belt, etc. All of those memories make it so that I don't find myself wishing to be a child again. I kind of fuck more with being an adult.

 

[divinemistress87]

Even though I was depressed as a kid it was a lot better I didnt know how the cruel the world could be and could trust people . Miss the innocence

 

[Shadows From Hell]

I miss being a kid. My parents let us kids be kids, go out and get dirty or muddy, put us in the tub and got us cleaned up.

I think the biggest thing I miss is when I was 5 or 6, playing with my cars in the dirt. Mom never had to check on me(but she did anyway) because she knew exactly where I was and what I was doing.

My preteen and teenage years however, is a time I don't miss.

 

[Yume Nikki]

Even though my childhood was traumatic due to the abuse from my dad, I'd still wish to be a kid again. I'm tired of worrying and stressing over adult things on a daily basis. After my ex left and all my friends abandoned me I've begun to sink back into a shell of my former self. I no longer see joy or hope in anything. There hasn't been a single day where I don't shed a tear. I'm also in the process of trying to file for disability due to mental illness and have a hard time finding a job. I just want to be a mindless stupid kid playing video games late at night again and not have a thing to stress about anymore.