Venting I just failed to strangle myself

[falseNightingale]

I had all the equipment to do the "night night" method, everything was planned and I was in my hotel room with my suicide note on the thumb drive. While testing out the ratchet I think I manually tightened it and held it too hard without actually closing it properly and passed out while the actual ratchet loosened up after I went unconscious. I was just woken up after 4 hours by a call from family.

I can't fucking take this anymore. I somehow managed to fail at the most basic shit imaginable

I'm gonna confide in my sis, I don't even fucking care if I end up at the mental health jail anymore

 

[grapevoid]

Don't be so hard on yourself. That method is actually not so simple and it's always easy for something to go wrong once you're passed out. I personally messed around with this method and it was very difficult for me! A lot of us have had failed attempts, I know it's so frustrating and heavy immediately after.

I failed an attempt with inert gas that cost over $500 for the set up and woke up hours later in an ambulance, all my supplies confiscated, because I somehow removed the bag after passing out

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Truly sorry for what you are going through now, hope you can somehow just take a step back, calm down and not think too much. Sending you love and hugs.