Venting I have no one

[caesium]

I don't understand why the people in my life ignore me. I don't get why they say they'll be there and then just not. I feel like my only purpose in life is to be abandoned. Some days the only thing keeping me alive is the fact that I'm too much of a coward to attempt. At this point I'm too scared to ask people for anything because the pain of being ignored isn't worth it. I genuinely need someone if I'm gonna keep going but I don't think I'm capable of trusting anymore. I had a partner but he left and it broke me. I was bad enough before but now I can't even imagine myself living much longer without feeling sick. The worst part is that if you asked anyone in my life they'd probably say I'm doing better. I guess it's probably better that way. They all just get mad at me eventually. I just wish I had someone I could truly rely on.

 

[disabledaccount0452]

I hear you. It hurts when people say they'll be there and then vanish, especially after everything you've already been through with your partner leaving. You deserve people you can count on without walking on eggshells. The trust thing feels broken right now, and that's understandable after what you've experienced. It doesn't mean it's gone forever, just that it's been damaged.

You're not alone in feeling this way, even if it seems like it right now. Take things one breath at a time.