# Never in my life have I met someone that's so apathetic. #
Wait no that's actually everyone
So yea
So pissed at this shit
Nothing is worth it and idk what to do
What do I even do anymore
What's wrong with me
i havent been able to find anyone in fact i dont have any friends. everyone around me has a partner and a happy life they can share with their partner. i just want to be like them but i cant. i have a few "friends" but theyre just going to leave me either way so why dont i just leave them first instead. i feel so fucking sick and i cant fucking sleep. my crush has also been ignoring me a hell ton for something i dont even know what i did. maybe it's because of all the stress from socializing he does irl but idk. it's not like he cares about me anyway because he flat out refused to talk to me today.
i cant become partners with any of my friends because i know they arent interested in me anyway. sometimes i fantasize about having the life i always wanted with a loving partner but i know itll never happen anyway. because you know what nobody even wants me to talk to anybody. my crush for instance does not want to talk to me.
not long ago my ex best friend that i TRUSTED literally ditched me for his girlfriend after ruining my whole life. he and his girlfriend basically tore me apart. didnt let me be friends or date anyone. so first i dated this girl and he didnt approve it and him and our friends tore us apart. then i started dating this another girl and we were madly in love an in an actual serious committed relationship until my ex best friend and our entire friend group fucking ghosted me and sent me threats if i didnt break up with her. he said it was "for my own good" so i trusted him. turns out she actually loved me and now we're completely over all because of him. then he ruined my life further by not even allowing me to even talk with these two girls ive been seeing, and forcefully separating me from them, or else he'll just berate me to no end about how i need to leave them. i TRUSTED him because he said it was for my own good. then he just ditched me, completely ignoring and shit. and now im broken with no friends and no partner and no one to love.
Wait no that's actually everyone
So yea
So pissed at this shit
Nothing is worth it and idk what to do
What do I even do anymore
What's wrong with me
i havent been able to find anyone in fact i dont have any friends. everyone around me has a partner and a happy life they can share with their partner. i just want to be like them but i cant. i have a few "friends" but theyre just going to leave me either way so why dont i just leave them first instead. i feel so fucking sick and i cant fucking sleep. my crush has also been ignoring me a hell ton for something i dont even know what i did. maybe it's because of all the stress from socializing he does irl but idk. it's not like he cares about me anyway because he flat out refused to talk to me today.
i cant become partners with any of my friends because i know they arent interested in me anyway. sometimes i fantasize about having the life i always wanted with a loving partner but i know itll never happen anyway. because you know what nobody even wants me to talk to anybody. my crush for instance does not want to talk to me.
not long ago my ex best friend that i TRUSTED literally ditched me for his girlfriend after ruining my whole life. he and his girlfriend basically tore me apart. didnt let me be friends or date anyone. so first i dated this girl and he didnt approve it and him and our friends tore us apart. then i started dating this another girl and we were madly in love an in an actual serious committed relationship until my ex best friend and our entire friend group fucking ghosted me and sent me threats if i didnt break up with her. he said it was "for my own good" so i trusted him. turns out she actually loved me and now we're completely over all because of him. then he ruined my life further by not even allowing me to even talk with these two girls ive been seeing, and forcefully separating me from them, or else he'll just berate me to no end about how i need to leave them. i TRUSTED him because he said it was for my own good. then he just ditched me, completely ignoring and shit. and now im broken with no friends and no partner and no one to love.
