Venting I have decided

[Raskolnikov's Axe]

I tried so hard to get better, but nothing seems to help.

I used to be more active on this site but left to actively pursue self improvement.

I enrolled in a Law School but my mind is so rotted that I cannot keep up.

I sought help. I got on antidepressants. I am currently on them. I told my friends and they tried to help me, and I feel so guilty about how many people this will affect.

I met a wonderful woman and we fell for each other before realizing that we have unresolvable differences. I feel horrible for what I am about to put her through, especially considering she has already lost someone to suicide.

I just need to end this existence before it gets even worse. I fought this battle for six years. I cannot do it anymore. I do not fear it. I yearn for unconsciousness.

 

[WeDontKnowTheFuture]

Hi, since how much time are you on antidepressants ? These pills created a false euphory on me then turn me into an apathetic zombie. I rediscover my sensitivity when i stopped them 4 years ago. I'm sorry to hear you are in so much suffering and hope you get better at some point!

 

[Raskolnikov's Axe]

Hi, since how much time are you on antidepressants ? These pills created a false euphory on me then turn me into an apathetic zombie. I rediscover my sensitivity when i stopped them 4 years ago. I'm sorry to hear you are in so much suffering and hope you get better at some point!

A week or two I think. Time is kinda fucked up for me when I have been sleeping for like 16 hours a day in my dorm room.

Yeah, I had feelings of euphoria but now I feel clearheaded and ready to die basically. I'm travelling to a place where I will die in a few days and that's that. I don't even feel sad, just relief.

 

[WeDontKnowTheFuture]

antidepressants can create suicidal thoughts in the first weeks of use it is on the paper, don't know if it your case anyway. You said that you suffer since long time so i guess it is not the med triggering your decision, i hope so

 

[Raskolnikov's Axe]

antidepressants can create suicidal thoughts in the first weeks of use it is on the paper, don't know if it your case anyway. You said that you suffer since long time so i guess it is not the med triggering your decision, i hope so

I just began using them. Might be. Even so, I don't care. I just want to leave. Long overdue.