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Waldorf&Statler

Waldorf&Statler

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Feb 17, 2024
7
I am so tired. I'm in my mid 40s and a child sex trafficking "survivor", autistic, family scapegoat abandoned as a kid. Everyone hates me, I have never had a real romantic relationship, cannot work, and am consistently taken advantage of when I trust people, presumably because I am an easy target. I have been suicidal since I was 14 and keep trying to fight.... I am tired. I have no friends or family and no money. Phone and power have been cut off and just got an eviction notice. I want to die but in Canada I cant get SN and doctors won't give me access to MAID. I have been abused by the medical system when I have sought out help and there is nowhere to turn. I don't know what to do. I am scared of slitting my wrists or hanging myself. I just want to die fast. No one will miss me so I don't feel guilty about hurting anyone, I'm just too scared of the pain of the methods available to me. I don't know what to do.
 
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LilGhost

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Apr 8, 2026
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I am so tired. I'm in my mid 40s and a child sex trafficking "survivor", autistic, family scapegoat abandoned as a kid. Everyone hates me, I have never had a real romantic relationship, cannot work, and am consistently taken advantage of when I trust people, presumably because I am an easy target. I have been suicidal since I was 14 and keep trying to fight.... I am tired. I have no friends or family and no money. Phone and power have been cut off and just got an eviction notice. I want to die but in Canada I cant get SN and doctors won't give me access to MAID. I have been abused by the medical system when I have sought out help and there is nowhere to turn. I don't know what to do. I am scared of slitting my wrists or hanging myself. I just want to die fast. No one will miss me so I don't feel guilty about hurting anyone, I'm just too scared of the pain of the methods available to me. I don't know what to do.
I am very sorry to hear it. You can read more about methods via https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/suicide-resource-compilation.3/ if you didnt yet. The most painless method would be MAID and wait until March 17, 2027. The eligibility for medical assistance in dying (MAID) for individuals suffering solely from a mental illness has been delayed until March 17, 2027.... Also, I see you, health care trully suck. I really hope you'll get to find peace in any meaning of that word
 
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Waldorf&Statler

Waldorf&Statler

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Feb 17, 2024
7
I am very sorry to hear it. You can read more about methods via https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/suicide-resource-compilation.3/ if you didnt yet. The most painless method would be MAID and wait until March 17, 2027. The eligibility for medical assistance in dying (MAID) for individuals suffering solely from a mental illness has been delayed until March 17, 2027.... Also, I see you, health care trully suck. I really hope you'll get to find peace in any meaning of that word
Because of lobbyists it keeps getting pushed forward. It has already been delayed 3 times and is unlikely to come into effect at all. I can't wait another year, I am going to be on the street in 10 days. I already read about methods but sn isn't available in Canada and the other methods are not accessible.
 

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