Venting I HATE THIS FAMILY AND THIS DAMN RELIGION

[miq2k]

Full dictatorship OVER MY ENTIRE LIFE. EVERY FUCKING ASPECT. yk, I thought it couldn't get worse. I thought, this was the maximum, getting beaten and forced to adhre p. But 2 years now in Egypt when I originally lived in Germany. The massive change in how I'll live, how I'll breathe, my routine, EVERYTHING. the way this damn religion will be forced onto me even more. Not just by my family but by EVERYONE ELSE. no more support system or any fucking system to rely on. My childhood, my friends, university. MY LIFE, MY ENTIRE LIFE. I can forget it. I can forget everything. Wave it goodbye. I think my quality in everything just took a massive hit. When I heard "oh yeah no, we're staying here 2 years now instead of 6 months" I think something in me actually broke. I don't know anymore other than to just fucking kill myself. I can start preparing to just have blue skin everyday now. Im so done.

 

[Yavannah]

do you still have contact to friends in Germany?
maybe a teacher from your old university with the same cultural background could speak to your parents?

 

[Seaghost]

Or can you go back go germany by yourself?
Its so sad when Religion/Culture just forces pressure on people :/.

 

[davidtorez]

Sounds so horrible. I'm sorry you feel this way and that you feel trapped. My dads also from Egypt but not Muslim, and he loves it there. Sometimes he talks about living there!

 

[miq2k]

do you still have contact to friends in Germany?
maybe a teacher from your old university with the same cultural background could speak to your parents?

No, but family friends who could talk some sense into them. But If that doesn't work, I'll do everything myself.. i cant keep quiet about this.

Or can you go back go germany by yourself?
It's so sad when Religion/Culture just forces pressure on people :/.

I might. I seriously might. I don't care

Sounds so horrible. I'm sorry you feel this way and that you feel trapped. My dads also from Egypt but not Muslim, and he loves it there. Sometimes he talks about living there!

Thank you, im not even angry that they wannt to live here. Im glad they do im glad they have their religion, but I just don't understand why they need to force it onto me.. Egypt is a nice country, im glad your father can reminisce and dream of a small home there. But it's just not where I want to be, not my dream. Thank you

 

[onmywaytothebusstop]

Religion is an illness.