i hate that my death will mess everything up

[Hhhhhh]

it sucks knowing when i die everything will get messed up in terms of my family. I feel like I'm one of the major glues holding everything together. my parents are both emotionally unstable and teetering on the edge constantly. my brother will probably become very depressed because of it and i dont want that to happen. my parents wont be able to look after him because theyll be so busy feeling bad themselves (they're both kind of selfish people). its really frustrating

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Only thing I can say is talk to your brother and make peace with him or try to find the will to go on for him. As for your parents, sounds like they likely won't card too much other than attention seeking due to your passing which in and of itself could be a damn good deterrent or revenge. All depends on your decision.

 

[Hhhhhh]

Only thing I can say is talk to your brother and make peace with him or try to find the will to go on for him. As for your parents, sounds like they likely won't card too much other than attention seeking due to your passing which in and of itself could be a damn good deterrent or revenge. All depends on your decision.

im never sure with my parents. id like to hope that my death will maybe make them a little more open to examining their blind sides because theyre not evil people or i want to think theyre not. i just want them to look after my brother for me

 

[akrasia]

we could never really escape grief after our death. it's nice to see that you care about your family. i believe that it should be up to you whether you want to ctb or not. make peace with your family, enjoy some activities together. if you're scared about your parents being unable to take care of your brother, maybe teach him before you go.

 

[thirdwitch]

I've been putting it off and putting it off, trying to find just the right moment in which it will make the least trouble for anyone. Problem is, the longer I put it off the fewer resources to do it right I have. If I had just gone ahead with it five years ago it would have been easier on everyone.