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Griever

Griever

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May 1, 2025
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I was just out for a walk, headphones in, lost in the music, trying to find a small piece of peace in the chaos of everyday life. I didn't hear her coming - the cyclist. She didn't call out, didn't slow down. Just shoved past me like I was nothing. No warning. No apology. Just force, and then she was gone.

It happened in seconds, but the feeling lingers like a bruise under the skin. Shock, confusion, a deep and bitter sting. It wasn't just the physical push - it was the message it carried: that my presence, my space, didn't matter. That people can be careless, cruel, and keep going without a glance back.

Now I can't stop thinking about it. I replay it in my head, wondering If I did something wrong. But mostly, I just feel crushed - like the world outside has sharp edges I can't protect myself from. I've barely left my bed since. I don't want to walk those streets again. I don't want to face the world. I hate how people move through life without care, and how one moment can shatter your sense of safety.

I used to love walking. Now I just want to disappear.
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Elementalist
Mar 15, 2025
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I hate when that happens. People are idiots.
 
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Dayrain

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Feb 3, 2023
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wondering If I did something wrong
You certainly did nothing wrong. But in this particular case you have to keep in mind that this cyclist someday may have probably made the same experience as you with a car. It's just a pecking order, which makes your oberservations not less valid of course.
 
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Griever

Griever

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May 1, 2025
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You certainly did nothing wrong. But in this particular case you have to keep in mind that this cyclist someday may have probably made the same experience as you with a car. It's just a pecking order, which makes your oberservations not less valid of course.
After the cyclist pushed me aside, she crossed the street and if a car driver or bus driver had hit her or maybe even run over her when she tried to cross the street, then I wouldn't have helped her!
 
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getoutgirl

getoutgirl

got out the site <3
Mar 17, 2025
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For every shitty cyclist there is a kind old lady. Some people suck, some only some days some always, some other people can make life worth living, some harder. This shit aint wisdom, it's just a mess of people out there.

I'd really hate if you were to lose your love for walking just out of one encounter with a cyclist like that. If It happened recently I can't ask of you to just get over it, give yourself some time. I also get how it's just not only about the cyclist. If you are suicidally depressed (which maybe you are not but you are here so...) things like these hit hardest and remind you of the general social mess you are forced to coexist in when you barely have the strenght for it. The urge to disappear is strong then. I tend to isolate too for those reasons, I just can't face it when it's that state we are in, reclusion becomes a survival mechanism. A way out of society and that tension and pain we can't handle. Just not one that brings hapiness in the long run or even much short term.

So if you can return to going for a walk in some time, please do. Listening to music with headphones just walking around is great and it helps me too. So regardless of how the world and its people still are out there, don't let them take you the few things you find joy in in this world. Any bit is worth it. In any case you take it easy, hugs <3
 
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Dayrain

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Feb 3, 2023
513
After the cyclist pushed me aside, she crossed the street and if a car driver or bus driver had hit her or maybe even run over her when she tried to cross the street, then I wouldn't have helped her!
Yes, and she probably would not help a car driver or bus driver in a similiar situation.
 
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Griever

Griever

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May 1, 2025
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Yes, and she probably would not help a car driver or bus driver in a similiar situation.
She didn't have the right to push me aside, especially because I was already walking along the side so other people could pass me!
 
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Dayrain

Mage
Feb 3, 2023
513
She didn't have the right to push me aside, especially because I was already walking along the side so other people could pass me!
Absolutely, I didn't try to defend her.
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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I fear people.
 
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TheDevilsAngel

TheDevilsAngel

LetMeFree (I'll never be free)
Apr 22, 2019
836
I'm sorry she had to do that. I have people around me who are like that all the time. Like this one couple for example they snobbed me one day and they always use say hi when my ex was with me. Nice people aye, well the point I'm making is it stung like a bitch tbh I hate knowing you had a bad experience as we all deserve some respect, even just a lil bit

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Ijustcantanymore

Ijustcantanymore

Experienced
Nov 22, 2024
237
Humans are truly awful creatures. The worst on the whole planet. I'm glad bad things are happening to our species. It's fully deserved. And I hope it gets worse.
 
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divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
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Lance Armstrong wannabes are the worst. They always take up the road and have no consideration for anyone else
 
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Griever

Griever

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May 1, 2025
460
I wanted to kill myself because of this situation, but maybe it's better if I wait until my date in June
 
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Sir Otwudcul

Member
May 24, 2025
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Now I can't stop thinking about it. I replay it in my head, wondering If I did something wrong. But mostly, I just feel crushed - like the world outside has sharp edges I can't protect myself from. I've barely left my bed since. I don't want to walk those streets again. I don't want to face the world. I hate how people move through life without care, and how one moment can shatter your sense of safety.

I used to love walking. Now I just want to disappear.
Bad cyclist, good girl, you. I wish I could hug-squeeze them hard feelings from those feelers of yours!
I wanted to kill myself because of this situation, but maybe it's better if I wait until my date in June
Your... date? What if you fail to do it in time? You'll feel horrible — that's what! I think it's better to end yourself when you feel like it and ONLY if you deduced it's an absolute necessity.
 
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Sando_1737

I always wondered why I’m still here
Mar 5, 2025
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Sending a virtual hug
 
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Pluto

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i-dont-like-morning-people
 
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Carrot

Carrot

Mage
Feb 25, 2025
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Please don't let experiences like this discourage you from things you love.
 

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