I hate my medication

[Steamm]

I can't even cry!!! That'sjust terrible. I hate this feeling.

 

[Nymph]

You could talk to your doctor about trying different meds or just stop taking them at all (slowly)

 

[Steamm]

You could talk to your doctor about trying different meds or just stop taking them at all (slowly)

I already talk to him about it but he said it was important to me take the meds, and I'm on a bunch of meds. Pristiq, venlafaxine, mirtazapine, lithium and risperidone.

 

[BridgeJumper]

Meds are poison, change my mind.
Emptiness inside, feeling fake, no emotions, no sex drive, hands shaking, getting fat, still doesnt fix my depression but yesss, it works, how can I not seeee

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm so sorry for you. Hope you get meds which really help you soon.
In my case, I hate my meds because they just don't work. I'm only sleeping better but my suicidal thoughts are more active than ever.

 

[Lupgevif]

Meds are poison, change my mind.
Emptiness inside, feeling fake, no emotions, no sex drive, hands shaking, getting fat, still doesnt fix my depression but yesss, it works, how can I not seeee

They helped me more than any psychologist ever could. Personal experience, of course.

 

[Steamm]

I'm so sorry for you. Hope you get meds which really help you soon.
In my case, I hate my meds because they just don't work. I'm only sleeping better but my suicidal thoughts are more active than ever.

Me too. All I can think it get out of this shit hole.

They helped me more than any psychologist ever could. Personal experience, of course.

You are just blind. As soon as you stop taking them, you will feel like shit.

 

[k75]

They helped me more than any psychologist ever could. Personal experience, of course.

Same.

They protect me from my mind and impulses so I can try to work on the actual problems.

 

[Lupgevif]

You are just blind. As soon as you stop taking them, you will feel like shit.

I have had periods of abstinence. I did feel like shit. I still prefer meds over psychologists. At least they help me when I'm under their effect, psychologists just never help.

 

[Ghost2211]

If your doctor isn't willing to discuss the discomfort your medication's are causing, and keep an open mind about changing or stopping according to how it's affecting you it might be time to find a new doctor.

 

[LostSoul101]

I can't even cry!!! That'sjust terrible. I hate this feeling.

Unfortunately emotional blunting/numbing is what anti-depressants are supposed to do

 

[Lupgevif]

Having said the rather off-topic things I said, for how long have you been taking these medications? I don't think it hurts to get second opinions from other professionals, if you can afford it. Do you want to totally leave them, or just change to see if you feel better?

 

[Steamm]

Having said the rather off-topic things I said, for how long have you been taking these medications? I don't think it hurts to get second opinions from other professionals, if you can afford it. Do you want to totally leave them, or just change to see if you feel better?

A year. I wanna cut it all off so I can feel miserable again and finally kill myself.
I hate myself!!!!!!!!!!

 

[LostSoul101]

Can I suggest watching a horror film? With emotional blunting, you might not be scared while watching it because your emotions are numb. And watching a violent film might relieve you in some way instead of taking it out on yourself physically. Does watching a horror film appeal to you?

 

[Steamm]

Can I suggest watching a horror film? With emotional blunting, you might not be scared while watching it because your emotions are numb. And watching a violent film might relieve you in some way instead of taking it out on yourself physically. Does watching a horror film appeal to you?

I feel nothing while watching a horror movie.

 

[LostSoul101]

Would watching violence (a passive activity) relieve you of wanting to actively harm yourself?

 

[Steamm]

Would watching violence (a passive activity) relieve you of wanting to actively harm yourself?

No, I just want to hurt me.

 

[LostSoul101]

*myself
There are some apps you can download to your phone to try to thwart self harming. Have you downloaded any?

 

[Deleted member 17949]

does sound goodn't

 

[Lupgevif]

A year. I wanna cut it all off so I can feel miserable again and finally kill myself.
I hate myself!!!!!!!!!!

If you're on it for a year and still wanna die, yeah, your doctor is forcing something that's clearly not working onto you.

 

[elfgyoza]

If you're on it for a year and still wanna die, yeah, your doctor is forcing something that's clearly not working onto you.

Should antidepressants actually make you not want to die? Idk I've always thought that they help people get the energy and motivation to do stuff like therapy.

I've been suicidal on every single medication I've tried. I get more energy to look after myself but the wanting to die thing kinda stops me from trying to 'get better' lol

 

[LostSoul101]

Zoloft causes suicidal ideation in the first couple of months of taking it but its common sense to READ THE LABEL to know what side effects to expect. It's also your responsibility to tell your doctor if they're not working.
Emotional blunting is the main effect of taking anti depressants which starts after the side effects have settled but that can't make sense to feel emotionally blunt and want to harm yourself. Go to the doctor.

 

[k75]

Should antidepressants actually make you not want to die? Idk I've always thought that they help people get the energy and motivation to do stuff like therapy.

I've been suicidal on every single medication I've tried. I get more energy to look after myself but the wanting to die thing kinda stops me from trying to 'get better' lol

Lithium is the only one proven to treat suicidal ideation. I experienced first hand that this was true, but I wasn't able to continue a high enough dose to maintain it. But before that, I went from suicide being constantly on my mind and having very active plans to not even thinking about it ever. It was very subtle and natural seeming, and it actually took a little while for me to realize I hadn't felt suicidal at all in days. It was really nice.

Other antidepressants may or may not have that effect on different people, but it's probably mostly that they feel better in general and no longer want to die so bad.

 

[Lupgevif]

Should antidepressants actually make you not want to die? Idk I've always thought that they help people get the energy and motivation to do stuff like therapy.

I've been suicidal on every single medication I've tried. I get more energy to look after myself but the wanting to die thing kinda stops me from trying to 'get better' lol

Well, I can't say for sure. All I know is I never got any energy or motivation from medicine. They just subsided other symptoms of my mental illness, which improved my quality of life to some extent. I did not feel like taking care of myself, I just had to stand less symptoms.

Lithium is the only one proven to treat suicidal ideation. I experienced first hand that this was true, but I wasn't able to continue a high enough dose to maintain it. But before that, I went from suicide being constantly on my mind and having very active plans to not even thinking about it ever. It was very subtle and natural seeming, and it actually took a little while for me to realize I hadn't felt suicidal at all in days. It was really nice.

Other antidepressants may or may not have that effect on different people, but it's probably mostly that they feel better in general and no longer want to die so bad.

I also took lithium for more than two years. It worked for some periods, while others it was like I had never taken it.