Venting i hate my face and body

[snowyyy]

I hate my face and body.
I hate how I have a nasty construction of my entire human body, a crooked face, a hunchbacked nose, bulging eyes, a grim expression on my mouth, thin and brittle hair, a thick body without any feminine proportions, a crooked posture.
I hate the way I look and the fact that I am forced to be stuck in this body.
Looking at others who look much better than me makes me want to cry and drives me crazy, I then feel like pulling all the skin out of my face just so I don't look at this ugliness every day.
I try to go out only in the evening so that no one punishes me with their eyes and so that I don't have to compare myself to anyone.
It pains me to live with ugliness. I wish I could at least look as good as people my age.
I feel that I am being chastised by life not only in a visual way, but also by other things. I would like to look at myself in a different way for once, and not with tears.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I'm sorry. I feel the same way. It's annoying when people make it out to be solely a self-esteem program as it society doesn't inform it completely.

 

[inutil]

Have you ever seen a specialist in facial plastic surgery?
Regardless of who you are, there will always be someone who will like you, you just haven't found that person yet.
I was depressed and decided to go to the section of the city where the prostitutes are, I had several, but there was one who liked me, she asked to stay with me more, she asked me to be with her other times and didn't charge, we started to do something like flirting, we talk almost every day, I don't believe in the possibility of us having something serious, the point is that I didn't imagine that anyone would like my presence.

 

[finalkarma]

i feel the exact same way. sometimes i even avoid looking at people while we're talking just because i dont want them to look at my face. im sorry you're dealing with this, it's not fun. sending love

 

[jeni-chan4]

This world is so cruel and makes us feel the lowest about ourselves. Nothing about living and existing is fair. It is meant to drag you down and the "tough" survive. It is a disgusting society designed by monsters who force you into it at birth, to labour for years in order to be good enough to have a place, and to conform to made up social constructs. This is not a world that you are meant to be happy in. It is constant misery.

 

[4potioned]

It's a cruel world, and it just makes it harder for us to live in it, being forced into ugly bodies. I'm so sorry, you're not alone.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Have you ever seen a specialist in facial plastic surgery?

I wouldn't suggest plastic surgery to someone who clearly has a lot of body image issues and low self-esteem. It's not uncommon for people in that position to go overboard with plastic surgery in an effort to fix themselves and even become addicted to it (due to the dopamine rush that comes from the results). Plus, plastic surgery isn't likely going to do much long-term since they'll likely end up finding something else they hate about themself to fixate on.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

I'm sorry. I feel the same way. It's annoying when people make it out to be solely a self-esteem program as it society doesn't inform it completely.

Yeah, people have a hard time accepting that some outcomes in life may genuinely just be luck of the draw or otherwise out of our control.

 

[henry22]

I'm ugly too but I don't think it's really impacted me other than sometimes I'll obsess and get depressed over it. I just mostly roll with it and life moves on.

 

[ramble]

I hate my face and body.
I hate how I have a nasty construction of my entire human body, a crooked face, a hunchbacked nose, bulging eyes, a grim expression on my mouth, thin and brittle hair, a thick body without any feminine proportions, a crooked posture.
I hate the way I look and the fact that I am forced to be stuck in this body.
Looking at others who look much better than me makes me want to cry and drives me crazy, I then feel like pulling all the skin out of my face just so I don't look at this ugliness every day.
I try to go out only in the evening so that no one punishes me with their eyes and so that I don't have to compare myself to anyone.
It pains me to live with ugliness. I wish I could at least look as good as people my age.
I feel that I am being chastised by life not only in a visual way, but also by other things. I would like to look at myself in a different way for once, and not with tears.

This is such a horrible feeling. I've found no matter what I try I'll always hate myself and feel disgusting.